-Dare To Be Different*

change url

2005-12-05T12:14:00.000+08:00

i have decided to change my url/move blog.i just don't like my current one.hmm..maybe i won't tell people my new url.so you have to find out yourself.want my blog to private.anyway,my father have upgraded my comp thus now my comp is windows xp - FINALLY.but its dammit slow lor.ana's coming back today.wee~oh and i can't wait for the 2C chalet.i'm not overnighting BUT i would stay until very late.it makes up for not overnighting.anyway,i want to get back to my movie so ciao~
p.s. anyone wants to watch aeon flux or have the dvd/cd?

again,again

2005-11-30T15:49:00.000+08:00

i miss my net peeps.why the hell did your comps crash at the same time as one another and ana overseas??net is boring.staying home is damn boring.i want to go out.i'm dying.

again

2005-11-30T15:48:00.000+08:00

stupid tagboard.why doesn't anyone tags?stupid people.stupid me.but the people are stupider than me.

blog

2005-11-30T15:45:00.000+08:00

i think its stupid writing in a blog where no one ever reads.and what is the use of a tagboard when no one tags?this is stupid.life can't be more boring than abc.it can and that is what killing me now.i'm gonna be dead by tml.prepare to attend my funeral.ha-ha.boredom kills.

wiped out

2005-11-26T14:32:00.000+08:00

i am so worn out and pissed at someone.it wasn't my fault that what happened happened.and its not everytime.watch your tone,mister.its not as if i asked it to happened.i didnt want it to happen and its not everytime.get your facts right for once,please.gggrrr!!i'm not gonna update so much cause i'm going out eventhough i'm soooooo tired and i want to sleep all day long.my mum's fault.sh*t happens to me all the time.crap seh.i miss my gang and the times we were a group.the next time is gonna be complete would be during the chalet.that also,haishah not there.so its an almost gang.i'm having my madrasah exam tml.and guess what?i havn't studied even one freaking chapter.slack right?actually i can't be bothered but wth?study for the sake of studying.i cant wait until madrasah finally closes.seems light years from now~~~mr heng told us that they have assign the classes - FINALLY!but he would not tell us until school reopens.crap right?i am so desperate to know seh.i want to go 3C.i dont know what so special about the class but partly,its because its the better class of course b,yar?i think so..haiz..well,i think i just have to wait until 2 Jan.shoot.ciao~

new layout

2005-11-25T16:25:00.000+08:00

i changed my layout 'cause i wasn't satisfied with the last one.i want to do a layout made of my code alone but i have not finish reading the html codes.haish.there's too many complicated stuff.i would rather watch and learn rather than read and learn.too much theory is not good for my mind.haha.i'm on msn,chatting to salmah who is very hard to find online so its great to be able to chat with her - FINALLY!haha.watched the soccer match between s'pore and indonesia.they were tied and baihakki cried.sadness.i shouted myself sore for them to score which was of to no use 'cause they missed everytime they scored.pure bad luck i guess,or maybe they are just not good enough.anyway,i have made my decision to sign up for which tuition.not that anyone wants to know,but oh well.to hell with ncc.i need to concentrate on my studies especially the next 2 years.the second turning point of my life - ha-ha.cca isn't gonna get me a place in JC,in NUS[i'm working on it],a career - especially not ncc.sorry if i offended any die-hard ncc cadets but i'm not one of them.its true what.ncc is not even what i actually wanted,it was something i picked out 'cause the one cca i was in love with was not available.i'm not the ncc kind.i don't go for torture.i don't go for orders.i want freedom.i want to feel wind hitting my face.i want to run like i never run before.ncc does not offer that to me.so yar.get that right before saying that i'm a die hard ncc cadet 'cause i'm not.I'M A DIE HARD ATHELETE! - oh and i have a NIKE fetish!haha.ciao~

movie marathon

2005-11-24T09:17:00.000+08:00

i spent my last 3 days on a movie marathon.watched so many movies.chicken little[i have the cd even before its out!,mwahaha],princess diaries 2,skeleton key,etc.etc.my dad went on a dvd spree!!haha.for today,i'll see wat i would want to watch..one more chance?shrek2?mulan 2?see lar.but for now,i want to know about celeb gossip!!haha!ciao~u'll see me around..

new blog

2005-11-17T15:23:00.000+08:00

i was tinking of making a new blog where no one noes my url unless they stumbledd across it.hmmz..still tinking of it.who noes?anw,i haf apparently nth to ryt n am leading a boring n unbeneficial life.haix.if there's anything,i'll blog again.ciao for now~

changed layout

2005-11-13T10:06:00.000+08:00

i changed my layout liaos.kinda bored wif the last one.i found the current one unique.wakaka.nth much to do today.oh,i hope i get into 3C.pls,pls,pls!!lols.gtg now.i noe its short but wateva.ciao~

curse?

2005-11-12T11:40:00.000+08:00

i am so mad at my youngest sis!!her hand seem to be cursed or sth.i noe its bad but seriously!!for the second time,she did sth to the mouse that it makes it so hard to move!!n the mouse always give problems after she use it.the mouse is not old as my mum juz bought it a few days ago,infuriating right?so maddening.i actually haf to cook now for my uncle whose coming but he said he wld come ltr so i guess i'll come slightly later.lyk u wanna noe ryt?life is so boring.seriously.ciao~

the feeling of satisfaction

2005-11-11T19:06:00.000+08:00

the feeling of satisfaction of what u get is great.but wen u dun get wat u want,its juz downright horrible.i've been there,done that.i'm satisfied n not satisfied wif the streaming results.i dun wanna elaborate more so i'll change the topic.

"its better to be loved than to love"

i kinda agree wif dis.yea,i neva fell in love but wat the heck?!if u're loved at least u mite start to love the person but if u love a person,u never noe if ur feelings are recopirated - or sth lyk dat.but its lyk the saying "it takes 2 hands to clap".

i just dun understand some stuff.but why should i trouble my young mind with such stupid small stuff?i got to go now.ciao~

some raya pics.

2005-11-09T10:11:00.000+08:00

i dunnoe wat to update.n i'm sure ppl gonna ask me to update soon.so i'm juz gonna upload my raya pics.

my cutie cuz;huda

me and nadiah;best cuzzins

watcha looking at?

me and ilah

hari raya models?haha.

p.s i look horrible in this

ciao~

jln raya

2005-11-08T08:42:00.000+08:00

ok..after much delibration n discussion,we decided to re-update the info..so pls get the correct tym n stuff..thnku

Date: 14th Nov 2005
Meeting Place: In front of World of JJ
Meeting Time: 1030 am
Remember to bring ur ez-link with money!!pls top it up first.

this is the confirmed place n time.oh n dun ask for ltr time bcuz u wanna sleep..=))ciao~

jln raya

2005-11-04T12:31:00.000+08:00

the date for the jalan raya is confirm.i hope there wld be no more changes.if anyone has sth on,pls,pls,pls tell me.

Date: 14th Nov 2005
Meeting Place: ~~Choa Chu Kang MRT Control Station~~In front of World of JJ
Meeting Time: 1130[any earlier time can tell me]
Remember to bring ur ez-link with money!!pls top it up first.

Most probably we going to Sembawang first.will update you guys more next week.

cut my hair

2005-11-02T12:05:00.000+08:00

i cut my hair liaos!got a fringe so my dear frens wld be happy...i tink u gals wld wanna c it ryt?wait sua..been tidying my personal spaces,help my mum tidy up the hse..all those stuff..oh in i haf approximately 5 more seconds b4 she starts SHOUTING again..b4 i forget,the jln rayer ting the date is not confirmed..but most probably on the 14..gtg..ciao~
oh b4 i 4get,to those celebrating hari raya,

Selamat Hari Raya.Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

hols.raya.

2005-10-31T14:49:00.000+08:00

hols started alredi..today is such a lazy yet busy day..i finally got ard to cleaning my study table..can u imagine the papers i "collected"?so much..n i threw most of it away..actually i threw more of skool stuff..hehe...anw,keep also wat for?buat semak jer..i had to go to the clinic to accompany my maid check up..so bored sitting at the clinic..after dat,i lazed ard..was too lazy to do anything..i wanted to cut my hair today but i guess my dad forgot..hrmph..oh n i haf to go to skool on wed to pass up my sec 3 form..waste of tym..i'm gonna make some more kuih tml.more cookies.i tink my mum will make her cornflakes too.it was supposed to be my sis job but she kept putting it off until my mum got angry.n u can guess wat happened after dat.got to go now.need to clean stuff up b4 my parents get hme.ciao~

2C

2005-10-28T14:48:00.000+08:00

last day of this term n skool..wow..felt so sad to leave the lame class..all the memories..i spent 2 yrs wif dis lame ppl!!!n i'm actually glad i spent 2 yrs wif dem n had nice memories too..especially wen we cooperate n seem to be so close..the camp..can i ever forget wen we helped each other wen trekking the gunung lambak?the tym wen we sang the barney song to ms yong n ms tan?the tym we painted our class?the lame jokes during lessons?the countless scoldings frm all the subject teachers?the most noisiest n most dirtiest class a teacher cld ever see?wow..i spent 2 years in a class so wierd..wld i forget my gang in class?THE 6 PILLARZ!!josiah n his insensitive remarks dat sometym amuse the hell out of us..zheng xuan n his attitude?zehang n his "bullying"..my pencil box can fly!wow!the front rows noise..shidah being at back wif me..zatie complaining abt nuraini,faza complaining abt ammar..u make a g8t couple..haha!sean n his lameness..lame arh u..yangzhi being chairperson n making me do everything...YANGZHI!!!!kendrick n his wimpiness..wat happened?wat happened?haha..it was so fun..i can't believe its over..i wunder wat wld happen wen i graduate?i wunder whether i will rmbr the tyms i spent wif dis lame,special class,2C

The end of the 2C/1C chapter

2C

2005-10-28T14:20:00.000+08:00

"I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town"
"Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it
Too hard to leave it
If I could I relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change"

course b

2005-10-27T16:43:00.000+08:00

here i cum course b..pls lemme get in to 3C..plsplspls..*prays*

I WANNA GO 3C!!

ok,sry..oh n course c can bes,shooo!!!!!haha..sry..juz so dat i can get into 3C..hehe..ciao~

useless

2005-10-26T19:41:00.000+08:00

i am useless ---- in everything.

disaster

2005-10-26T19:06:00.000+08:00

im a complete disaster.

failure

2005-10-26T19:05:00.000+08:00

i'm a total failure.

lowest of the lowest pt of my life

2005-10-26T16:28:00.000+08:00

i'm at the lowest of the lowest point of my life.i'm sadd.i juz sux.i cannot choose.i haf no choice.unlike oths.ciao~oh n i haf to cook.lasagna.

no skool

2005-10-25T17:56:00.000+08:00

no skool today.promotion day.my results were the bad amg all.at least izz improved n had 4 As.wat did i get.anw,i made my decision to go which course so stop asking.i'm going course b.dats the onli course i'm eligible anw.oh n course a.i'll die going there.i mean it.no offence to anyone.im sry i made u tink abt urself lyk dat.im so so so sry ok?n we are still gonna be together ryt?ok..cool..haha.i cant continue so i'll blog tml k?ciao~

sad..

2005-10-25T12:04:00.000+08:00

i'm sad.sad.sad.sad.my results sux.

abc...

2005-10-20T17:26:00.000+08:00

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz
=))

update

2005-10-20T16:59:00.000+08:00

bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.
can't wait to go skool tml.can't wait.but dun wanna see the results.i wonder how i did.hmm.today is boring.went johor yestreday.bought my raya stuff.doesn't anyone tag?hey.its not dead yet.tag.tag.tag.grr.i have.chat.read ppl blog.tag.play games.neopets.listen music.i'm dying n rotting of boredom.boredom can kill.serious.oh my.stinky.hmmz.tml.meet my peeps.meet the class.meet the teachers.yuck.meet the exam scripts.double yuck.meet the chairs.meet the tables.meet the stupid school.im sry.wateva.what happened to the entertainment?sianz.sianz.haiz.ana,wat are you doing now?listening to tATu.all about us.wat a song.faza,wat are you doing now?thinking wen to cook the red beans.hmm.haishah,wat are you doing now?wat am i gonna eat for buka?oh god.salmah,wat are you doing?oh amal is cuming ltr.to wat?oh to take his cd consent form.im not showered yet.sarah,wat u doing?the music changed!to.umm.oh.with you.by jessica simpson.i tink she's better than her sister.i lyk dis song.shida,wat u doing?i'm lazy to type more.can i go now?pls.with chocolate.i dun wanna go terawih.y muz i go?im tired.r u tired?

marking days..

2005-10-18T15:40:00.000+08:00

oookkk...we haf 3 days of no skool..whew!but wen we go back to skool on fri,we get our exam scripts back..suxs man..i wunder how i did..muz be very badly..sianz!!i wanna cry seh..haha..lyk real..nolar..i dun wanna cry..but i'm scared to go skool on fri..dun wanna go skool...in my dreams will it be true..haix..i slept half of the day..haha!sleepy mah..so nice to sleep..den i watch cool guy - AGAIN...haha..but its so nice dat i dun get sick of it..my hse not much movie arh..so...dun get angry if i burn ur cd k??haha..boring..havnt gone online yet...maybe ltr..c 1st arh..tml,going out wif my family..gonna get raya stuff..wunder where we going..told my dad to go johor but he say lazy..sianz!!!so bored..anyone has any fun games to play??

yay!!

2005-10-15T12:50:00.000+08:00

YAY!!exams are over..ok,fine..almost..but who wants to reallie study abt home econs???i mean onlie freaks wld do dat,ryt??i'll onlie study it on lyk sunday??!!haha..soo i found out my maths marks n i got lyk onlie 51...bad seh..n sean and zehang who always score so freaking high got onlie 76!!how bad is dat?!the highest was kendrick,83..it juz proves dat the maths ppr was a killer ppr!!!n the passing mark shld be lowered!!!!stupid hare!!shah call him tak laku..lols!!haix..byebye A maths..sad man..SADD.. i hate HARE!!!sianz!!now i scared for my eng n hist..they say ms yong say dat we did badly for our eng!!i lost 18 mks for hist alredi liaos!!WAAH!!ahh..wateva arh..for now i dun wanna tink abt the results yet..i wanna ENJOY!!bcuz its the end of the exams!!ok..almost..gtg now..ciao~

maths killer paper

2005-10-12T20:10:00.000+08:00

ok..i said i wun be updating until after exams but i haf to COMMENT about my maths paper today..i tot paper 1 was quite ok but still difficult..it was difficult but do-able..but wtc..paper 2 stinks!!!ggrr..i din finish up god noes how manie qns..i am so gonna fail..n dat mr heng was lyk,"its over.dun bother abt it..." we were lyk WTF?!!its our future u're tocing abt!!!i hate dat hare..shidah cried juz now..i felt lyk crying too seh..its lyk so,so,so SAD..crapness..the maths paper killed ALL my brain cells..no more brain cells for tml sci ppr..stinko..sci..another ppr i tink i myt flunk...but god..pls no..i dun wanna fail another paper..i screwed my hist,maths pls not my sci too..i did study..but it doesnt get into my brain..said my brain cells were dead..i guess partly bcuz i AM SO,SO,SO,SO SLEEPY...sianz..burning midnite oil again..lyk last nyt..maybe todae later..haiz..gtg now..ciao~
p.s REMEMBER HARE SUXS!!

not updating till.....

2005-10-04T18:02:00.000+08:00

ok...

I WUN BE UPDATING TILL AFTER THE EXAMS BECAUSE I HAVE TO MUG!!!!!!!!!!SO DUN ASK ME TO UPDATE!!!!!THANK YOU FOR YOUR KIND UNDERSTANDING!!!

dat shuld get to u,sarah..hehe..sry dear..=)) ciao~

break

2005-09-28T17:15:00.000+08:00

taking a break frm copying mly notes frm haishah books[thanks loads galfren!!]..n sorry abt yesterdae..to those who read it..i guess i was so stressed n frustrated..i noe u guys do too..aniwae,didnt stay back dat long wif the oths..went to library wif haishah..'revise' a lil bit...gonna do my maths ltr at nite..thank god i passed up my due assignments alredi..Thank Goodness!!now,i gotta be on task..n be stressed lyk wat ms yong alwaes seem to want to see..lols!!sry yar ms yong..n i flunk my previous maths test...bad ryt?gotta put in more effort liaos..especially in my SA2..tinking abt it gifs me jitters..oh yar,i say sth out loud...STOP TEXTING MY FRIEND TO ASK HER TO ASK ME WHY I'M IGNORING YOU!!U'RE BEING SUCH AN IRRITATING ass N A PAIN!!ITS MOSTLY YOUR FAULT THAT I'M IGNORING YOU!I MADE IT CLEAR TO YOU BUT YOU TOOK ADVANTAGE OF HOW I TREATED YOU..there...done..most probably the person wun read it but relieved to get it off my chest for once..dun tink ppl wld noe wat the crap i'm tocing abt but wateva..i dun reallie want them to noe..anw,got to continue studying...ciao~

slacker wif a capital S

2005-09-27T18:09:00.000+08:00

ok..had my mly oral todae..my convosation sux!!omg!!i so gonna flunk it BIG TIME!!n my goodness,i'm a freaking slacker!!!i still havnt start studying for my exams n there are lyk nxt monday!!!!slack ruz,slack..good arh??streaming year u noe!!!!!STREAMING!!!geddit into ur head dumbass!!ok i'm abusing myself wordly..[i forgot the proper word see?]sianz!!i gotta start making notes on my history n science...i seriously wanna cry..i wanna study but i can't..i seem to freaking slack..ok..i gotta do all my hmwrk today...lit,maths,mly...wtc?oh yar...FAZA!!!!WHERE IS MY MATHS TXTBK???!!!!oh crap...MUZ STUDY FOR MY MATHS TEST TML...mesuration..g8t...juz g8t...ok..things to do today:

THINGS TO DO TODAY

do my lit assignment which soooo due
do my mly dialog which is also soo due
do my maths which is quite due
study for my maths test[mesuration]
start on my history notes

ok..i have to complete all that in one day...which means i have to burn midnight oil..watevalar..got to step up..n CONCENTRATE n FOCUS!!!wtf?!!!pls forgive me for using vulgarities..so...i got to shower NOW AND F****** START DOING MY HMWRK N REVISION!!!

FOCUS RUZ!!!sry ppl!!hehe..=))
p.s.ALL THE BEST IN UR EXAMS ESPECIALLY THOSE TAKING 'O' n 'N'..
A SPECIAL GOOD LUCK TO SEC 2 2005 IN YOUR STREAMING[which includes me..=D]

ciao~

creepyy....

2005-09-23T21:31:00.000+08:00

hey there...not much tym to update..so juz wanna put sth here...sth i got frm my email...=))ENJOY!

History Lesson

Have a history teacher explain this----- if they can.

>>Abraham Lincoln was elected to Congress in 1846.

>John F. Kennedy was elected to Congress in 1946.

>>Abraham Lincoln was elected President in 1860.

>John F. Kennedy was elected President in 1960.

>>Both were particularly concerned with civil rights.

>Both wives lost their children>while living in the White House.

>>Both Presidents were shot on a Friday.

>Both Presidents were shot in the head.

>>Now it gets really weird.

>>Lincoln 's secretary was named Kennedy.

>Kennedy's Secretary was named Lincoln.

>>Both were assassinated by Southerners.

>Both were succeeded by Southerners named Johnson.

>>Andrew Johnson, who succeeded Lincoln, was born in 1808.

>Lyndon Johnson, who succeeded Kennedy, was born in 1908.

>>John Wilkes Booth, who assassinated Lincoln, was born in 1839.

>Lee Harvey Oswald, who assassinated Kennedy, was born in 1939.

>>Both assassins were known by their three names.

>Both names are composed of fifteen letters.

>>Now hang on to your seat.

>>Lincoln was shot at the theater named 'Ford.'

>Kennedy was shot in a car called ' Lincoln' made by 'Ford.'

>>Lincoln was shot in a theater and his assassin ran and hid in a warehouse.

>Kennedy was shot from a warehouse and his assassin ran and hid in a theater.

>>Booth and Oswald were assassinated before their trials.

>>And here's the kicker...

>>A week before Lincoln was shot, he was in Monroe, Maryland

>A week before Kennedy was shot, he was with Marilyn Monroe.

>>Creepy huh?

kinda creepy ryt??yar..but interesting at the same time dun u tink??faz,since u asked me to at least update everyday...here it is...i'm trying....hehe!!btw,u myt realised i havn't change my layout lyk i said i wanted yesterdae i tink...no tym arh..maybe mondae or after the exams???lols!okok..i'll try to change wen i haf the tym...ciao~

due to....

2005-09-22T17:49:00.000+08:00

due to a number of people who demanded i update..here u go...I'M UPDATING!!!!!LOOK!!!UPDATED!!!THE MOST RECENT ENTRY IS HERE!!!YOU ARE READING IT!!!!=))ok,faz..i'll TRY updating everyday or any oth day if i'm not lazy dat is...hehe...so i wanna change my layout 'cause she told me too...anw,went to the library wif haishah today...the cck library..omg..i'm so fucked up by one of the librarians....i,haishah n 2 of sec 1 kranjians who were revising,kena told off by mr lau bcuz dis fat librarian complained or sth...he said we were not supposed to do our hmwrk in the library..i was lyk WAT???!!!!!!i n haishah were lyk wtf???!!!!we were juz studying/doing hmwrk...dats is ridiculous!!!n ABSURB!!!!!den we dat is;me,haishah n the sec 1 gals went out of the library..so ridiculous seh...i mean lyk isit wrong to study in the library???!!!!i was lyk oth NATIONAL library can study all dat wat..wtf??!!!!so pissed...dis is so ridiculous...oh n spread the message:DON'T GO TO CHOA CHU KANG NATIONAL LIBRARY!!!!!ridiculous u noe...wat the hell?!!its lyk seriously.....isit wrong to study n do hmwrk in the library?i mean seriously..someone tell me...irritating...anw,i n haishah were lyk not sastified all the way home...i mean who wld??n i'm sure mr lau will say sth abt it tml...juz watch...ridiculous fat librarian...jealous bcuz we got slim figures or wat???gggrrrr....ok..dat's enuff for now...i'll quickly change my layout as fast as i can...n i'll go..ciao~

okok shidah

2005-09-16T15:10:00.000+08:00

ok shidah...i'm updating..HAPPY BIRTHDAY IZZATI!!!!u're 14 now ryt??wahaha!!jaga kau nanti!!basah giler in ur home clothes!!rmbr ro bring xtra clothes k??hehe!!haf to go back to skool at 6 ltr..dat mid-autumn thingy lorx..irritating..gonna meet ana n haishah at 6 at lrt station..den going faz hse for awhile b4 making our way to skool..sianz!!i'm not sure wat to wear but sarah has help me choose!!green top wif cargos..thanks dearie!!shidah n salmah not going...y u gals??y??lols!!gonna haf orienteering competition tml...die!!!n dey haf ncc training tml but i not going...waaww!!!dey gonna haf promotion test!!i wanna take wif dem...haix..but wateva!!it juz means i haf more tym to practice my armdrills...yay!!orienteering tml gotta meet ijah dey all at 7.50..crazy sia..so fast...but den again wateva...skool is cool...zehang is mute no more!!!3 cheers for him!!!pity ana...mute partner...yangzhi..lols!!oh yar,wanna tell someone...u noe who u r...u shuld stand up for ur rights..dun alwaes..wateva wateva n give in to dem..u muz be firm..n if i haf "enuff" patience,i myt for all u noe..blow up n scold dem to death..n u wldnt lyk me angry,ryt??so pls yar??dun let dem bully ur ~~ass~~...srysry...u...n rmbr minahs dun live long...i hope...n yar,alvin makes the dumbest yet funny irritations...n ms yong n zehang r veri funny especially wen dey're arguing which is evertym dey talk/meet...u shuld be there wen they're arguing..u'll luff ur heads off..okok..exegerrating...anw,got to shower,get ready for ltr...can't b late...if not..ana will scream!!lols!!k..ciao~

orienteering training

2005-09-08T18:06:00.000+08:00

hello...i am so bored..that's a fact..ok..i dunnoe wat i crapping..anw,had orienteering training dis morn..so tiring..ran ard 12 km...veri long ryt??even i can't believe it..so we met ard 7.30 at the minimart..waited for the rain to stop until ard 8 plus..den we started running..we ran the annual road run route..it was unfortunately uneventful..after the run anw,we discussed abt wat we wanted during the orienteering,blah,blah,blah..den we ran 2.4 km..after dat run,we stopped n met our usm..we ask her abt the orienteering all those..den after rested enuff,we started running the 2.4 route again ..but dis tym we jog n walked more..on the way,we saw an acciddent...so pitiful but the victim not dead..was concious..while walking,i talked wif ijah..she's nice..haha..after a few rounds,we rested again..den we started to run again..while running,dey decided to go to the stadium to run..at first i didnt wanna go but wen i reach there n wen they started running...dat was cool..'cause its a loooonnngggg tym since i ran on the track..the pleasure..hahax!!after running for i tink 3 rounds,we stopped n took pics..wif our hp lorx..den we walked back to skool to take our bags..in skool,i looked for salmah 'cause i saw there was table tennis..den saw her,talk and waited for her to finish their break..wanted to wait for her but i didnt noe wat to do while waiting for her..wait,wait,wait..finally went home - alone..booo hoo hoo!!!hahax!!at home,watched 100 days wif mr arrogant..O.M.G!!!the show is so nice..shidah..gif me the cd arh...i'll pay u..hahax!!well,i'm gonna watch movies today n tomorrow all day..hahax!!anw,gtg..ciao~

crappiness,horny & stupidity

2005-09-07T19:53:00.000+08:00

hey..todae is full of crappiness,horny n stupidity..first was crappines...started by our beloved jacq..she arh..look at mr chong..drool...den bcum so crappy..n she MELTS at the sound of his voice[sry jacq!!no hard feelings!!]..isn't dat horny??n she says i'm horny??!!look whose talking!!hahax!!jacq was soooo crappy N horny the whole day..but it was fun..she's reallie cool..n she's forever surrounded by her *coughs* wife,steady n sweetheart..*cough cough* but such a sweet horny gal..be careful of her horns...dun let dem poke u..=)) den came the stupidity of the day..presented by...*clap clap* RUZANNA!!haha..me of course...with my clumsiness...while walking home,i haf no idea...no idea at all..how i fell..n wat happened next??!!ana n haishah burst out luffing..bad people luffing at a person's misfortune..but i also ended up luffing 'cause i was being so stupid the rest of the walk..i can't believe i can trip n not noe how...crap ryt??falling down of course i had a scratch?wound?wateva u call it..but i dun tink its a scratch..crap..n all the way home..it hurt to wall..ok maybe exaggerated a lil bit..crappiness...i am so clumsy n full of crappiness...haix..hahax!!ciao~

surprise!!

2005-09-04T11:07:00.000+08:00

heyheyy!!haha..todae is a SUNDAY.i dun haf ANYTHING EXCEPT MADRASAH.i hope it RAINS REALLY HEAVY.so i can ESCAPE MADRASAH.haha.FAT CHANCE.ok..i got no idea y i'm ryting dis wae..seriously..anw,hols r starting tml.but i doesnt seem lyk hols..bleurgh!!i haf to lyk go back to skool ALMOST everyday..crap..thank god there's no ncc..science thingy tml.crap seh.wtf?!if life is getting bored,the bored gets more bored..huh?!wat am i crapping?haix..i am so bored!!!i'm watching anugerah which i tink is the shittiest show ever..sry if i offended anione..but these ppl dont reallie haf any talent..mayb a lil bit..but pls..there are better ppl out there dat can sing better..so dun pollute my ears pls..wakaka!!i'm bad..but seriously..its not nice lorx..it causes air pollution..n the fashion??OMG!!!!!!lyk so yesterday..my goodness..ruz..u shld stop critising..haha!!crap...how am i supposed to stop pop ups??!!f...can someone pls help me??crappy pop ups!!i hate it!!=(,")..btw,i'll try to update as much as possible kz??muacks!!ciao~

hi there!!

2005-09-01T14:24:00.000+08:00

today is skool holidae..quite boring..sianz!!anw,went back to sv yesterdae..can i sae it was quite boring??but anw,it was comforting to see my old frens,atiqa,nadiah n jasima,n my teachers,ms pang[c i'm learning chinese!!haha!!] n mrs khan..but watevalar..dey totallie dunno n understand who i am NOW..i changed babes..of course ryt??haha..if i wif my frens,we always crap n joke n all dat but if i'm wif dem,i cannot do dat..i'll receive raised eyebrows..i'm lyk..ookk...fine..so wen i wanted to go home,i called shidah n ask her whether salmah can teman me go home..so boring ppl..waited for salmah n haishah than wen saw dem..u wldnt noe how happie i was..i tink i looked lyk going to meet my b/fs..funnie sight i was..but wateva..I LUV YOU GALS!!!MUACKS!!haha!!ana,faza,haishah,izzati,sarah,shidah,salmah..the 7 of you rock my world!!!haha!!ruzanna going crazy..anw,heard ahli fikir's minah..veri meaningful..dat is one gd mly band..not jiwang..thank goodness!!no pun intended to those who lyk the mly music industry..i dun reallie lyk mly music but ahli fikir is one of the exception..i tink..gtg alredi..someone is dying to read my blog..n i'm not gonna miss dis chance..haha!!!ciao~=))

orienteering @ sentosa...

2005-08-27T10:35:00.000+08:00

whew!!I SURVIVED SENTOSA!!!i'm back frm my orienteering...cool seh..the place was creppy..realli creepy..but i didnt tink of it wen doing my task..ok so in the bus[detail 1-3] on the way to sentosa,me,izz,farish,syafiq,faezal,syahmi n danial were telling n listening to ghost stories..but wen we went into sentosa...everyone stopped..den we had to go to dis parade square..so long seh the walk..i was lyk..havnt start alredi tired seh..wen we reached the parade square,we had to wait for i dunnoe how manie mins b4 [sir] yee sheng dispatched us,detail by detail..i was in detail 2 so my grp was second to go..i was grped wif yasin n syafiq..we lost our way for a moment searching for c.p 1..wen we finallie found it,we had to find our ans to our qns..den wen find 1 ans alredi..the sargent sae got somemore..muz find all..den we stupidly listened to dem n wasted tym trying to find all the ans dere was at every station..dumb seh..after c.p 1,we had to go to c.p 3..woah..dat c.p so hard to find on the map seh..i was lyk where's the c.p..where's the c.p??[but in mly]..wen we finallie found it on the map,we practically sprinted there..my lips were lyk so dry..i cldnt swallow anymore of my saliva..eww i noe but wat to do?den wen we found the c.p..wasted tym tryign to find the ans..find here,find dat...neva find..den finallie found it..den suddenly the sargents say,"eh!girls in bikini!!"...i was lyk wt???i had to lyk lincah lincah..gtg to c.p 5 alredi..c.p 5 was so far away..i was lyk biler nak habis ni??so far..den i was lyk find sakae sushi..den find wat beach bar..finallie found the c.p...dat was the longest tym we took..'cause we a lil bit blind..haha..was lyk so easy to find but took such a long tym to find it..so funnie..c.p 7 was next.it was so,so,so far frm c.p 5..the funnie ting wen we were trying to find c.p 7 was dat wen we were in front of the road leading to fort siloso,we just looked at the building,look at each other and ran..hahax!!the road going to c.p 7 was so steep..after c.p 7,we had to go down the road again..wah liao..so the tired..so we had to find c.p 9..so we were walking in the middle of the road..den sargent naziha saw us n wanted to detain us for 5 mins as penalty...but yasin come out wif a cock n bull story dat a ranger told us to walk in the middle of the road 'cause it was so quiet n dark n there was onlie 3 of us..i n syafiq was lyk looking at him one kind..hahax!!gelak seh..den de oth sargent told us to go..i was lyk whew!!got lost trying to find c.p 9...den decided to find c.p 11..found the place but were looking ard for sargents but cldn't find..actuallie i n yasin wanted to go up this steps to see wat we can find..den dat syafiq arh.. "eh korang..sunyi..gelap..dahlar..korang jgn merepek..balik..pegi..takper,takper.." ..i n yasin was lyk..wth???!!!so we went back to the parade square..den look at the tym we were erly n dat noone was there xcept for mr heng..so we talked talked wif mr heng waiting for the other details..den found out,izz was in pain..i was lyk..haiyoh!!!worried seh so i sms her..den she sms me n to n fro..hahax!!so while waiting for the oth details,i n zatie talked wif sir sukhbir,faraish,khairul,yasin...wen finallie all the details were there,we went back to our drop off point..we were transported in a lorry..lyk illegal immigrants..so funnie sia dey all..make stories..ehh..keep quiet,officer checking..blah,blah,blah..izz so pitiful in front wif sir..haha..den wait for bus,den go home...in the bus,at first sit wif izz but den the sargent said casualties cannot be there or sth..so i sat wif amirah..den dey call me..i was lyk y?y?den i found out izz was sitting in front..front seat seh!!she wanted me to accompany her..i tot wat onlie..in the bus,we talk,talk wif mr heng abt the class,2C..we tell him who is wif who..blah,blah,blah..funnie seh..but den mr heng told us to go sleep..i cldn't sleep until at clementi..sleep,sleep until almost reach kranji but havnt..i make sure noone see me sleep..hehe..wen we reach skool,ard 3 am lyk dat,fall in..debrief or sth lyk dat den we go sleep in the hall..i cldnt reallie sleep..but finallie fall asleep..but i keep waking up bcuz it was so cold!!!finallie at 5 plus,cldn't tahan alredi..go n off the fan..but evntho dat,still very cold..den finallie at 6 plus woke up again n refresh ourselves den wait to be dismissed..after dismissal,me,izz,ijah,mirah,faiza,lina,iylie,hakim,syahmi,farish n azlan go n eat maggi..eat n talk as usual..finallie go home,go to lot 1 for awhile b4 going home..wen i reached home,my mum n sis not home so i go n shower n here i am..writing a boring story..hahax!!so basically did dat..dun tink i saw aniting 'cause if i did[which i'm not sure] den i dunnoe lar..wateva..didn't rellie concentrate on dat..wanna go sleep arh..tired..ciao~

tml

2005-08-25T18:31:00.000+08:00

there's orienteering tml..at sentosa..scary sia..haix..saw my ppr todae..sucked lyk hell seh..was gonna cry alredi..but [my frens] told myself dat i can still buck up..buck up big tym at dat too...u too,gal..u noe who u are ryt?we still can buck up..dun slack anymore..hehex..nvm shidah..eventho u beat me in all the subs n especially overall...i admit defeat but dat doesnt mean i wun put in effort in my eoy or my term 4.. i tink u noe me well enuff to noe dat i'm a last min worker..but i'll put in my best efforts..dat i promise to u gals...n my parents..n my paternal famly..n i'll prove to my mum's sibling dat i'm not as dumb as dey tink i am...i promise u i will study hard n achieve wat i want...i hope and hope..n i wish n i work hard...uh-huh...u gonna c me do my revision n hmwrk religiously..i mean it...its streaming tym...gotta boost myself..haha..oh shoot..i'm ic for those not present juz now...haix..i hate u [sir] yee sheng!!!ciao~

hmmmzz..

2005-08-23T18:14:00.000+08:00

hey there..so far,life is cool..but i wun noe wat awaits me in future..who noes ryt?i luv my lil cuzzie!!so sweet...such an innocent kid..alwaes praise me dat gal..i didnt noe i got talents seh..i dun seem to get praises so i dun noe whether i haf or not..but still cannot praise me so much my dear..hahax!!so cute man my cuzzie..alwaes there for me..muacks babes!!LUV YA!!haha!!skool stinks!!!big tym!!!hate skool..haf to rush thru all the assignments..f ppr..i hate skool..it sux!!suxsuxsux!!!!bleurgh...someone told me they prefer me in writing..true meh?hmm..i wunder..but honestly,i express myself better in writing...but i dunno wat ppl tink arh..comments pls??whether u lyk me in writing or talking..hahax!!but serious..i wanna noe...poll..hahax!got to go now...ciao~

ncc training ytd,today

2005-08-20T15:33:00.000+08:00

whew!!i'm so wiped out..its so tiring to haf training on 2 days straight..woah...ncc ytd was games day in a way...played captain's ball..my team won the games we played..but after the games,footdrill...footdrill was ok..i guess..den todae,training was oklar..wanna sae tired..yarlar..who isn't??especially those who come for both ytd n today's training...like me..sae i gd girl..hahax!!sarah got bitten by a bee..so pitiful..phobia wat she..anw,todae arms drill was so shiong..my hand aching seh..march here,march there,hormat here,hormat there,hentak kakilar..all those things lorx..after dat,had our orienteering test..i tink i did reallliiiieeee bad..serious!!haha..failed all i tink..i juz bluff my way thru mah...training ended late todae..went to eat mee wif iylie..den go home..didnt lepaklepak..verie the tired wat..hahax!!in the bus,i wanted to go sleep seh..so,so,so tired..my eyes going to close alredi seh...den ltr muz go my graddad hse somemore..haix!!so tired..my onlie tot is............I WANNA SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!hahax!ciao ppl~

told myself that,trust myself

2005-08-17T16:00:00.000+08:00

told myself not to trust it.told myself n i listened.read the signs.n i knew it.noone cared.neither do they understand.im lost fuck it.help me.i need someone to talk to,someone who notices me,someone who noes i haf talent[if i haf].n fuck it dun tag.dun sae ure my fren cause i'm a gone case,a lost case.u can't help me animore.i need someone dat i can bitch wif.dat i can tell my stupid lost fucking ununderstandable feelings.i dun need any kpos or fakeasses.i dun need silence.i dun need my sucky life.wen its ok.its not.get it.its not ok.its never ok.never.nothing is ok in my life.im pathetic.face it.im a pathetic loser who listen to everyone's stupid orders.i dun believe people anymore.ppl cannot be trusted.i tot i found someone who cared n understand wat i feel.but i have been given a cold shoulder more than once.i haf to face ppl who are pissed the whole day and wun even try to joke ard.but i can't do dat.i did it.showed attitude.but ppl wldnt care.dey tink im a spoiled brat.dey ignored me more than a day.dey said dey understand.dey noe how it felt.but dey dun.i noe dey dun lyk me dis wae.but i dun lyk dem dat way too.y can dey do it to me but not to dem.dun be fake.dun be plastic.i am a fake plastic who seeks attn frm those ard me.i tried showing signs.i tried showing bad attitude.but it didnt work.i dun want to make stories dat im sick or i wanna die.'cause im not n i dun.i noe im lucky in a way.but even if i am.its running out fast.ppl gonna leave me.i dunno.im lost.i cant find a way out.im not sure of myself anymore.who can i trust.who reallie does love me.who cares for me.who hates me.who backstabs me.who noes how i feel.who understands me.who.who.who.who.who.WHO????!!!!!!!i cant find myself anymore.i dunno whats happening in my life.in my mind anymore.nothing makes sense.everything is against me.i dunno who i am anymore.im not me.im lost in a world where i dun even noe where.im lost.

can i say..

2005-08-11T16:07:00.000+08:00

thanks for the words of.....encouragement babes..luv ya gals to bits..but i'm sorry 'cause i can't trust it for now...not going to update much..juz gonna sayy i'm bored to death..ms yong didn't cum juz now..thank goodness..during eng,had to do speech..den during pdp,ms sha also not in class so the class was lyk soooooo noisy...bingit..i wanted to sleep but cannot..mayb bcuz of the noise pollution..finally gave up trying to fall asleep n went to talk wif shidah,steph n jacq..talk abt hair n some oth crap..was so hungry after skool..even after eating the sue mai n i dunno wat its called..went to 7-11 n buy the mashed potatoes..finally full..i get hungry easily now..n thirsty too..anw,i'm going to explore for some fun games now..damn freaking bored...=P ciao~

my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone

broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul

zip my mouth

2005-08-08T17:34:00.000+08:00

great..some ppl juz dun understand u noe..n they tink their freaking big person is dammit ryt..im not talking of one person..i'm talking of one whole big group of asses..pardon my vulgarities..who can u seriously trust?i'm seriously considering of transfering 'cause life doesnt fit me well in kranji...i'm gifing HUGE signs to my parents dat i'm desperate to transfer..i hope they get the msg i'm trying to transfer across..seriously..actually i dun even consider..i do want to transfer..mayb i can lyk follow my aunt n stay at shah alam/kl...i'll study in m'sia...but i dun want secondary life in m'sia..i guess i'll finish up my sec studies in s'pore in a DIFF SKOOL...n go some oth countries for my jc n uni..hmmzz..mayb..i'm not sure..but i seriously want to get out of spore n frm all the racist/biased ppl..i'm sick of lyf..seriously..but im not desperate to die..i luv lyf..but not in this enviroment..i noe i'm lucky in a way..i appreciate dat...but sometimes dis kind of life doesnt suit me..im sick of all these insecure n they hate me feelings...i noe dey dun wanna help me,they tink i'm crap,i haf to please them so they'll accept me,i wish they appreciate me,i hate them but i luv them too,dey dun want me ard ,i noe they're against me kind of feelings..haiz..its a big sign how unhappy,insecure n out of place i feel..noone help me so far..i mean seriously..y dun u tell it to my face u hate me n dat u dun want me ard..i mean i'll do juz dat..i'll disappear frm ur sight n u'll neva c me again..everyting i do is no gd..seriously..ppl dun mean wat dey sae to me..i mean i noe it,i can feel it..dey dun EVEN want me ard..i can't trust anione.noone at all..i wun open my mouth.my reaction to ppl talking to me wld be...:smile,nod,laugh[eg.haha].dats practically all..i mean seriously..i wld put it into action approximately tml..anw,noone will come n tag anw..unless i sae tag my board leh..which i tink is lyk kinda pathetic tinking abt it now..i tink im pathetic..

I AM PATHETIC!!!I HAVE NO FRIENDS!!!!I'M LOST!!I DON'T HAVE A LIFE!!!I'M SO FUCKING LOST!!!

there i said it..i still haf a lot inside dat i didnt ryt out..i can't trust anione..especially wen they sae i'll be there for you,i'll help you all those shit..for now i tink its total crap..
a note:if u hate me,tell me to my face..i'm sorry if i caused you too many probs but i'm not telling this to you..i'm juz writing dis out..i dun want you to please me..i dun even wanna be a burden to you gals..juz get dis:i'm onlie pouring this to a blog where i can confide to,an unliving thing which i noe can't have any feelings..i dun need you gals to come to my blog if you dun want too..its not a noticeboard of how i feel,its a replacement of a person where i confide my feelings,my lyf n my insecurities..its my fren..my imaginary fren but i'm not crazy lyk nuraini..oh no..i dun talk to myself in public..so yar..dun be frens wif me if u dun lyk me or u feel lyk u're forced too..i dun want dat..ok?i dun wanna be a burden to u gals n if you really do read this[gasp!],pls pretend you didn't,i dun you to tink "alar!!!tak habis habis arh dier.." n i dun want u to misunderstand me..ok?so pretend you dun noe..pls do that favour..muacks!i luv u gals even if u dun luv me..ciao~

me..not to be provoked

2005-08-05T20:00:00.000+08:00

so i'm easily pissed these daes..yar i admit n i'm sry..but i try to avoid being so sarcastic so if i avoid u or gif u hateful or angry looks pls forgive me..its better to me sniding u..i mean u noe me wen i'm all sarcastic..hope u understand..im getting a lil bit annoyed wif some remarks especially frm faz..i am so sorry faz..but pls drop all those butt n boob remarks..i mean its not our fault dat it wun grow to the desired size but wat can i do?go for plastic surgery?sry arh..but dat wld be fake ryt??so yar lar..pls k?'cause some things can reallie get a person after a lot of similar remarks..i'm so sorry..oh yar,n pls tell me if u're not happy wif me..i mean seriously all of you should do dat..put me down for once..i mite be angry for a moment or two but i tink u gals noe me quite well enuff..i wld cool down less than 1 hr..1/2 hr even..i haf leg cramp..ggrrr..irritating...i can be so pathetic..i'm lyk so bored dat im driven to watch a local soccer match..SAFFC vs SCFC...all the s,f n c..haiyoz..so far..SAFFC 0 - SCFC 1..oh yar n a lil note to a someone...if u dunno wats going on,don't try to pretend u noe n understand..u dun even noe how i feel..so wat if its no big deal to u??it is to me..ppl haf their priorities..n mine n urs does seem to parallel..so juz shut ur freaking mouth n stop trying to be all wise n sae how stupid or wateva..PEOPLE ARE ENTITLED TO THEIR OPINIONS BUT YOU'RE A STEP TOO FAR..i feel differently abt tings frm u..u dunno wat it feels lyk..u dun even understand the situation..so shut up..do dat as a favour to living mankind 'cause u caused too much damage alredi wif ur so called wise words...i'm sry if anione terasa..'cause i dun tink the person is even reading dis..tinks so much of the self dat person..gtg now..ciao~

in skool

2005-08-03T08:05:00.000+08:00

hello!updating again..hahax!lyk duh ryt?shidah's not in skool todae.. wahahaahaha im blogging in sch!!! <---- ok dat was soeng may..hahax!!we're in skool in curricucullum tym..she's sitting beside me not on task..lyk i am lyk dat..hahax!skool's ok..i guess..oh yar..todae's dan's b-dae..HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAK HITAM!!hahax!!jkjk..relax yar??!!u lyk to tease??me too!!hahax!!oklar..seriously..HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIAL!!hahax!!wei shan talk a lot seh..hahax!!seriously..luff a lot also..happy go lucky arh she..faz,zatie n sarh is lyk so on task..hahax!!me NOT!!!usually..i seriously got to buck up..cannot NATO...haix..muz do my work on task seh..oh yar,shidah if u're reading wen u're home den Y DIDNT U CUM???????i noe most prob sick ryt??haiyoz..take care of urself leh...haix!!n i tink we're gonna get our hist ct back so..aiyoh tak tau..hahax!!omg..zheng xuan' s crapping..he can be so irritating and annoying sometimes lyk josiah but they put in great fun into our class.........i guess...i refuse to acknowledge dat fact..n soeng may,u keep tagging ppl's blog!!haiyah!!!!KEEP ON TAGGING!!!!!!!hahax!!!ok..gtg..ciao~lalala~<--- soeng may signing out..hahax!!

camp feast

2005-07-26T18:30:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK!!!!woo hoo!!i can't believe i'm saying dis..but i tink...dat CAMP FEAST WAS TOTAL FUN!!bsides the rain,the misunderstanding n stuff..i slept at the the upper bunk!!dat was way cool...lols!!no..there wasn't any ghosts or wateva!!serious!basically at camp feast we had a lot of activities,some which got cancelled 'cause of the rain such as PAINTBALL,ROCK CLIMBING and RAPPELING[all the fun stuff!!!groan!!]..dat was so not fair but it was still fun..i mean the oth activities..i especially lyk the low element..to me dat was the best!!!there was also archery which rox but wld be better if dat officer didn't scream too much...the food...was...was....nice!!!i mean better than usual camp food..i got to noe a few of nan hua n crescent ncc gals..the boys were quite anti-social to the girls...for my troop that is..oh yar,i was in Echo 1..there was a campfire night,dat was i tink was the worst activity 'cause to put it simply it was a screwed up flop..my troop had to lyk clear off the ncc hq's rubbish stored in their very,very smelly room/store...my goodness,the smell was too nice...hahax!!i tink [sir]yee sheng was kinda mad at us for some stupid reason..i mean it is a stupid and lame matter not forgetting dat he doesn't noe the truth..so its basically stupid as well as lame as well as dumb as well as......hahax!!!oth thn dat i tink camp feast was fun..i did miss my frens but i was kinda too bz to even tink abt dem dat much..it doesnt mean dat i dun miss dem..of course i miss them loads!!i wunder how the nxt camp[specs course] will be?shuld be difficult..sae going to be specs ryt?got to ciao now..ciao~

camp feast

2005-07-24T22:39:00.000+08:00

ok..so i'm going camp feast tml..i'm so not waiting for it...NOT!!!i'm so gonna miss a lot of things..my mum,my dad,my sis,my sis,my gals,ana,faza,haishah,salmah n shidah,dat one likehate person,my bed,my kinda hard n uncomfortable pillow,my messy table,my place in class...basically....EVERYTHING...u'// tink i'm lyk going for a yr plus rather than two days and away frm s'pore..haix!!!i so can't wait for it to be over..grrr...i hope i can juz skip it..but i noe i can't..i still havnt finish packing for camp feast and i'd better start now..so ciao~
p.s.i'll update wen i get back.*muacks!!*hahax!!

ok so layout's changed

2005-07-20T22:52:00.000+08:00

hahax!i changed my layout again..'cause i tot i preffered dis one..i dunnoe how long i'm gonna stick to dis..but i guess time will tell..so i put in lyrics..go n find it!lols..if u want too..so i mite lyk change lyrics now and den..depends on my mood..hahax!a lil bit of luff for my peeps..read my hates..mayb its lame or worst not even funnie..but wateva...can't be bothered..i'm pretty that way tonite..dunno why..so yar..i'll update more tml..'cause i ~~got to go~~ SERIOUSLY got to go...yeps..oh yar..n i'll also update on the career guidance thing at spore poly tml..it shuld be fun,dun u tink?well,gtg now..ciao~

2005-07-20T17:10:00.000+08:00

ok gonna add some ting here n there..add pics or sth lar..add lyrics also can i guess..sry if wen i edit,i seem to copy u or wateva..'cause i noe some ppl dun lyk..it wld be seriously coincidential..ok so..here goes..ciao~

tym to update liao

2005-07-18T21:17:00.000+08:00

hey there!!!hahaks!tym for me to update alredi..anw,yesterdae went for ncc day parade..quite fun i guess...considering dat i n zatie n also sarah counted those who fall out..a total of 11 man..n only one frm land..woots* there was one who fall out..quite cute..hmmz..lols!serious but the bad ting was he was lyk ryt in front..he was the one who carried the sword thingy..but wow isnt he cute..hahax!wen mr heng collect the gold unit plaque we were lyk stand,clap,clap,clap,sit..hahax!oh yar,not forgetting the flag barrier..omg!so cute!!it was jun hui btw..hahax!but he was reallie cute in no1.wakaka!!todae was kinda fun..i manage to keep my spirits up the whole day!!yeah!!now muz try for one week..bit by bit yarz?i tink i'm gonna flunk my chem test..i didnt noe how to do the graph n some qns..i was lyk anyhow sua..wtf ryt?for mly ct,i juz scribbled aniting dat came to mind how bad is dat??luckily i didnt forget my format..format is lyk a lot of marks..i haf to lyk ryt lyrics for my sis class..i got no inspiration for now..but ltr maybe..so i realised my sister[i mean my 2nd one] has been relying/depending on me lyk a lot..ask me to do dis, do dat..all those shit..which brings back to my art..i still havnt completed it..shoot..ok better finish it up seh..mass signing was reallie fun..hahax!we crapped ard wif sean n ammar..my goodness,so hilarious..all of us are lyk full of crap..if i got to do a lot of tings i guess i haf to lyk --->[go] ryt now..ciao~
"Sing like noone's listening"
"It doesn't matter that you fail,at least you tried"
"Its better to be loved than to love"
"Suffer silently.Smile always"
"Never cling to a lost love for you can always find another one"

hey there

2005-07-13T21:06:00.000+08:00

hey..i made a list of wishes..lols..not gonna put it here..gonna change my blogskin..lols..again ryt?i'm updating but its gonna be reaaalllliiieeee short...lols..anw,jen:no worries..read ur taggie kz?i tagged alredi..anw,i hope if u gals r unhappy wif me pls juz tell me off no matter how hurting..lyk u tink i sux n flirt too much..or dat i'm a slutty flugy bitch..wateva..seriously..i wanna change..i need u gals for dat unless u dun wan me to change den dats sad 'cause i haf some ppl who use de word frens too loosely..sry yars..'cause now i tink dat actuallie few daes i've been tinking a lot...i mean it a lot..i wanna change lyk frm dis gal who has so manie faults into someone a lot better..noe wat i mean??hope u do..anw,now i tink we should lyk juz sae it out if we dun reallie lyk sth but dun make it too hurtful..noe wat i mean??no..u dun..watevalar..the main pt is to tell the person in a way dat she/he doesn't feel hurt..oh yar to phillip leave my frens alone n i tink dat u're juz a pathetic attention seeking asshole who is juz too full of his negative self..buzz off bustard...i dun care wat curses u gonna hurl at me..i dun care 'cause u're a coward..said my piece n now i'll go...ciao~
"What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies"-Aristotle
"If you want truly to understand something, try to change it." -Kurt Lewin
"Sports do not build character. They reveal it." -Matthew Campbell
"Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts." -Winston Churchill
"If you would be loved, love and be lovable."-Benjamin Franklin

stuff dis daes

2005-07-07T18:46:00.000+08:00

ok..practically i'm pissed wif some stuff easily..dat is i'm sensitive!!lols!!i admit i'm sensitive!!woohoo!!hahax!!i mean who admits she's sensitive?tell me?not manie ryt??hahax!i'm in a surprisingly happy mood now..lols..kak fida:hahax!!kpo arh u..lols..juz kidding!!actuallie i dun tink so..but its a mayb..lols..sumtyms i find the sight of him an eye sore but sumtyms i find the sight of him beautiful..lols..who noes yars??=))my frens seem to be sad these daes..hey gals..chill out!!chill..life is so beautiful!!!salmah:make bad luck turn into sth good okz??!!shidah:chill gal..i noe its hard but u haf to let go..anw,i'm happie u're back on ur feet after onlie a dae!!so proud of u!!lols!!ana:y u sad gal??talk to me if u're reallie down kz??i'll be there for u......wen the rain starts to fall..lols!!i tink i'm starting to lyk the mass signing ting..reallie interesting stuff..hahax!!oh yar,i'm hist rep..(..''')..but i lyk hist so i guess oklar..but i hate the teacher..i love the subject but hate the teacher!!!!lols!!nag too much lar she..lyk makcik2 lyk dat..lols!!btw,here's some quotes...:
"You can fake confidence but you can't fake responsibility"
"If you live to a hundred,I want to live one day more than you so that I will always be there for you"
"We can pretend that everything's ok but we can't pretend that the truth is not there"[correct or not?=X]
"It kills me to try and I'm too young to die"
ciao~

tink back

2005-07-04T13:57:00.000+08:00

ok...todae's youth day..nth much to do..my tagboard has to warm up..wtf..i'm sitting in front of de comp,updating my blog,revamping part b n cheri blogs,chatting n tinking..i m busy..u can call it bz...mayb juz now...i'm in a damp mood...not so hyper..not so sad or wateva..kinda neutral i guess...still feel as if a part of me is missing..goodnes..gonna miss part ds a lot..loads man..didnt realise it wld make such an impact on me...so big an impact..i was caught off guard...seriously..anw,part b blog is revamped..comment on it,tag it..hope my tagboard is ok by tml..i hate it if i find out its spoilt n haf to change it AGAIN..its not dat convenient..haix.u dun appreciate something that is so good until it goes.y is nature dat way?so unfair towards us..haix.miss all of de part ds..xiang rong,kak khalisah,harith even chin pin[correct spelling?]...all of them..i'm gonna make dem proud of us n not let dem forget us dat easily man..haix..a trick under my sleeve...anione interested to chip in can im me..lols..but warning 1st,u haf to come out money..so yar.i noe dere r some selfish money givers out there but u can contribute by iming me n i'll tell u wat u can contribute..lols..wat am i doing??=Xgtg now..ciao~hapy youth day ppl!

end to great specialists...

2005-07-01T22:18:00.000+08:00

Just a poem for what happened tonight..every beginning there's an end..so tonight there's an end to hafing great specialists..=))

Graduation isn't gradual.
In fact it's quite abrupt, a sudden shock.
It's more like rushing towards a waterfall:
One moment we're afloat, and then we're not

Sure,we see it coming up ahead,
The water roaring into the abyss.
We make a joke and look away instead,
Unable to acknowledge what this is.

And then the moment's past, and we're the same.
Everyone is smiling, sunny bright.
Eventhough they're dreading inside
And then we think, well, everything's all right.

But life is like that: things get smashed inside,
And we don't even know it. Foolishly,
We think we're in it only for the ride,
Yet mourn for all that can no longer be.

taggie

2005-06-27T22:58:00.000+08:00

ok..there's sth wrong wif my tagboard..shoot..mayb haf 2 change tagboard..haix...

lyrics

2005-06-24T16:54:00.000+08:00

hey..nth much to update on..juz putting up some lyrics..

Someday We'll Know

Mandy Moore feat. Jonathan Foreman

[Mandy] Ninety miles outside Chicago

Can’t stop driving I don’t know why

So many questions, I need an answer

Two years later you're still on my mind

[Jonathan] Whatever happened to Amelia Earheart?

Who holds the stars up in the sky?

Is true love just once in a lifetime?

[Both] Did the captain of the Titanic cry?

Oh, Someday we’ll know

[Mandy] If love can move a mountain

[Both] Someday we’ll know

[Jonathan] Why the sky is blue

[Both] Someday we’ll know

Why I wasn’t meant for you...

[Mandy] Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?

[Jonathan] Or what the wind says when she cries?

[Mandy] I’m speeding by the place that I met you

[Both] For the ninety-seventh time...Tonight

Someday we’ll know

[Mandy] If love can move a mountain

[Both] Someday we’ll know

[Jonathan] Why the sky is blue

[Both] Someday we’ll know

Why I wasn’t meant for you...

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

Someday we’ll know

[Jonathan] Why Samson loved Dalilah?

[Both] One day I'll go

[Mandy] Dancing on the moon

[Both] Someday you’ll know

That I was the one for you....

[Both] Open up the world

[Mandy] I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow

[Jonathan] Watched the stars crash in the sea

[Mandy] If I can ask God just one question

[Both] Why aren’t you here with me tonight?

Oh, Someday we’ll know

[Jonathan] If love can move a mountain

[Both] Someday we’ll know

[Mandy] Why the sky is blue

[Both] Someday we’ll know

Why I wasn’t meant for you...

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

Someday we’ll know

[Jonathan] Why Samson loved Dalilah

[Both] One day I'll go

[Mandy] Dancing on the moon

[Both] Someday you’ll know

That I was the one for you....

skool reopening

2005-06-23T10:57:00.000+08:00

hey there..juz tot of updating evethough there's nth to update actuallie..hahax!stupid ryt?well,4 more daes to skool reopen..omg!so fast..i guess i can wait for it..hahax!!i miss ana n sarah!!hahax!!didnt meet dem for a loonngg tym..hahax!can't wait to meet dem..i still havnt finish my hmwk..there's still some stuff to do..ruz,ruz..better finish up..hahax!the last three daes were ok i guess..mondae there's sana course it was fun..wif de roleplay..hahax!i can't get it out of my mind..tues we went to little india..i can't forget it man..there was practically a squeling bunch of gals ard me..who can blame dem seh..the guys were lyk cute..sae eurasian..duh ryt?young not old so of course cute..one of them look a little bit lyk ari wibowo n den another look lyk danial radcliffe..i lyked the dan radcliffe one..so cute..he's better thn dan radcliffe actuallie..hahax!!anw,on tues poetry workshop..learn to do all types of poems..oklar i guess..dat was all lorx..boring ryt?ryt...hahax!!anw,ciao~

hehex!

2005-06-17T15:32:00.000+08:00

omg!!i saw the most cutest guy ever!ok mayb not most cutest but wateva..omg!!he is so dammit cute!!im lyk in a daze n in de happiest mood ever!!hahax!!ana shhh!!hehex!!omg!!i juz wanna scream!!anw,ana's going dis sun..boo hoo!!=( i wish i cld go out wif her b4 she went but she's grounded..wae to go ana!!hurmph!but neva mind..i'm chatting wif her now..=)) went library juz now,borrowed some books..den wen "sight-seeing"[as wat salmah called it..] wif izz..saw salmah..den walk ard wif her den izz wanted to go home..saw a bunch of skool guys..harith n gang..izz was lyk argh!!..actuallie me too..hehex!^__^ didnt go home..hang ard for awhile..den i went home..reached home..i switched on the monitor n sat here typing..so dats dat..=))ciao~

okok

2005-06-16T11:59:00.000+08:00

ok so far,i havnt found a new blog host..its so freaky hard..u cant believe how many times i signed up n deleted de acct in one day..i cant get into my angelfire acct.ggrr...wateva arh,i'll juz wait for a few more daes..i'm so damn hungry..not onlie sarah is hungry..me too..my home is barren of food..hahax!!i'm enjoying my dae so far eventhough its bound to be quite boring..but no worries,i got a book to help me!!hahax!!oh shoot,speaking of books i still haf not return one of my library book n i can't seem to find it..i haf to spring clean my table..better find it b4 tml..going to lot 1 to return my books n borrow new ones..yes i noe i juz borrowed yesterdae but i finished reading most of it or almost finishing...i tink..hahax!anione wanna accompany me tml to lot1?i noe its boring but wateva..dats all for now,i guess..ciao~

2005-06-15T17:28:00.000+08:00

i dunno wat is wrong wif blogger!!AAARRRGGHH!!!!it reallie makes me wanna scream!!WTF!seriously..dey need to haf a better maintaining company or sth lyk dat...meanwhile...i go search for a new site...huh!!!

lyrics

2005-06-15T09:10:00.000+08:00

Papa Roach
Scars

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]

layouts..

2005-06-15T09:02:00.000+08:00

hahax!im changing layout again..sry but im not reallie sastified wif my layouts..not up to expectations.hehex!anw,todae is de last dae for it..woohoo!!i mean i do lyk digital art but i dun lyk waking up in de morns..nooo...so yar..well,i watched rush hour 2 yesterdae..borrowed frm ana..reallie funnie..i luv rush hour!hahax!im becoming to not lyk blogger..seriously..ggrrr..its getting irritating..yeps..wen i sae i updated alredi means i updated so yar..hehex..i realised its a long tym since i uploaded lyrics into my entries..well,i'm gonna do juz dat so yar..woohoo for me!!hahax!

my digital art pic..big ryt??hahax!

busted!

2005-06-13T16:32:00.000+08:00

shoot man..everitym i wanna change layouts..ppl beat me to it..den if i change,ltr ppl sae i copy2..wtf!!but dun care arh..i'l change for my own benefit..i juz feel lyk changing my layout..its not dat my current layout is not nice..its pretty ok..but i juz wanna change..noe de feeling?anyway,i got to do my da all over again..its so f.ugly..de nxt tym,i do not want one of u will comment until i finish understood???*telling de 3 gals*so im off finding pictures 4 my da..whoosh!!!

digital art

2005-06-10T09:39:00.000+08:00

hey..in skool now..digital art rulz!hahaz!we're not doing aniting much..juz looking for pics..i got dis idea in my head which is not exactly fully developed..i tink im juz gonna whack wateva comes in my head wen im doing it..i guess..'cause i onlie got a rough idea of wat to do..so yar..dere's ncc training tml..haizz..--"'..i can juz die..oh yar,muz remember to bring $3 tml for de sana course..i dunno y i dun reallie enjoy ncc...its juz someting routine..i prefer adventure n surprises..routine stinks..i juz hope dey change how training goes..aarrgghhh!!!i kinda dread going for training..sorie sir..but im no enthu-cat..huh??[=X]i reallie luv da..gawd..its so cool..i gotta d/l adobe photoshop..so i can plae ard n i can get a better idea of wat im gonna do..yea..gotta go now..ciao~=))

back frm camp!!

2005-06-07T12:06:00.000+08:00

hey ppl i'm back frm camp!!woohoo!!camp was kinda fun but there r some bad stuff but i lyk it in e end..well,here's wat happened...

Day 1
reached skool-went to immigrations-reached campsite
at the campsite
built our tent-did kayaking:
kayaking was fun!!i was wif ana.i steered as i sat in front.so we were lyk left right left right..den i was lyk shouting..left ana!left!AAAAHHHH!!!!!!..apparently,we ramped into a bark n wewere lyk tilted..i was lyk i told u ana to move left n we started luffing..it was so funnie..we had to wait for a boat to pull us..there was a meeting n we had to kayak dere but we were going round n round n didnt make it dere..i n ana were lyk left..no right..no left..NO RIGHT!!!!!it was so funnie..
-raft polo:i didnt plae as there was not enuff life jackets n helmets but those on shore..were lyk joking n plaeing ard..joking abt random stuff..

Day 2
i didnt sleep e whole nite..ok mayb for a few min but dat was all..ok so in e morning we went to climb gunung lambak..dat was so cool n fun..:
nth exactly happened wen we were going up to me dat is but...BUT faza n sarah r so hilarious..omg!i didnt c wat happened 'cause i was so engrossed in climbing..but i heard n saw dem luffing..e scenery on top is lyk so nice..wished i had brought a cam..wen we went down i was in front as i had to help izzati..she sprained her ankle..i fell lyk a zilllion tyms..on my butt somemore..at the midpoint,ammar ran 'caused he was chased by a dog..hahaz!!so funnie..after climbing we had raft building:
we were lyk arguing n stuff..we were e last grp to finish n i had to pair up wif ammar to test e freaky raft out..i n ammar were lyk fiting all e wae..he was lyk go right,right n i was lyk i noe i noe!!im trying ok!!n de oth were lyk coming up wif some stupid crap..argh!!we didnt haf tym 2 plae water crossing or sth lyk dat..
-campfire:
it was mr lim's bdae n wen he lighted e campfire we sang a bdae song..wen it was our class performance we sang our song done by alvin which went lyk dis:
Summer rain is falling
Instructor Ramli is calling
The tentages are burning
Let it burn
Let it burn
Let it burn
after dat we ran in front of de teachers n sang e barney song which ended wif We love Constance Maybelline
we made ms tan sad so it was sth to make up to her..i tink our class luv ms tan to bits..seriously..u shuld c dem wen e whole class apologised to her..it was so sweet..ok so after campfire we had nightwalk:
i was wif sarah,calvin n yang zhi..me n sarah were holding each oths hand n calvin n yangzhi were holding each oths hand too..it seemed as if me n sarah were leading n protecting de bois rather den dem leading n protecting us as me n sarah were in front..it was reallie dark n stuff but omg...u shuld look at the stars it was lyk so nice...i n sarah keep looking upwards n commenting on how beautiful de stars were..

Day 3
i slept so soundly dat nite n actuallie overslept as i was supposed to meet up wif salmah at 1 am..but didnt cause both of us overslept..but salmah woke me up at 5 am n both of us woke shidah n izz up..haha!!de oth 3 were lyk sleeping so soundly..u shuld c dem man..so cute..den we had obstacle challenge but de oth team was sort of sore losers..well i totallie love de bus ride home!!most of us slept on de wae to e immigration..at de s'pore immigration everione was commenting,finallie clean water,no more twisties water..hahaz!!wen we reached de immigration,all of us ran to de toilet...ok not all but me n my frens..we were lyk so happie..on de ride to skool me n shidah talked a lot..abt so much stuff..hahaz!
me,sarah,faza,shidah,ana,izzati,ammar,danial,yangzhi n alvin went to limbang mac to eat..we were joking n eating..it was fun n nice...shuld do it more often i guess..hahaz!!

overall i tink it was quite ok but i luv e bus ride home,kayaking n climbing gunung lambak...omg..its so nice to be home...hahaz!!ciao~

thanks

2005-05-31T15:25:00.000+08:00

hey thanks for those words..i was really touched by them..thanks loads..made my dae briter,my life even..it juz so freaky to haf these feelings u noe?i dun wanna be so depressed n stuff lyk dat but i can't help it..n it juz doesnt help dat some ppl who seems to care doesnt care n those unexpected ppl happens to be those who care..wat happened to the rest i wonder..i dunno why i'm such a stressed up,boring person wen i wanna b happie n fun..gawd!but wateva..im juz grateful to haf 2 of the most wonderful frens of all friends here..reallie appreciate them being there..thanks..well,i did my lit hmwk..searched e net for the poems..i chose feelings..n wen i read some of them it totallie reminded myself of me..n it was lyk so weird n awesome..noeing dat someone is lyk hafing exactly e same feelings as me..it comforted me a lot..at least i noe i wasn't alone..dat was b4 i read those words dat is..those words juz comforted me more..well,actuallie i wanted to tell the grp not to read my blog but cldnt tell 2 of them in tym..so wen i read thier words i was lyk so touched so yar..i'm starting to lyk poems..it reallie sounds gd wen u're feeling an emotion n u juz ryt a poem..its juz such a nice wae of putting something..well,i'm done for now so yar..ciao~=)

torn up inside
broken up into pieces
trying to fix it again
but the ends doesnt fit
dun wanna feel dis wae
wanna hide n run awae
awae from this
wanna be
calm n collected all the time

hOls

2005-05-30T15:59:00.000+08:00

hey there..i'm juz so pissed..seriously..i dunno whether i ketinggalan zaman or ppl juz cant be bothered to tell me..seriously..i mean lyk I AM THE LAST TO NOE stuff n it stinks..seriously..i mean i dunno aniting n wen dey talk abt it n i am lyk wat?wat?wat?WAT!!!!!????????u noe e feeling?mayb not..but do u tink i care???no...freaking hell no..haiz..but u noe..i'm sick of being pissed n angry n there's noone to hear my freaking whimpers..ha-ha...yea..but noone even wants ryt??=)yar..so yea...wt...??anw,i dunno y i'm so freaking deppressed e recent wks..it is so lyk scary...but e weird ting is i am so collected n calm wen im wif my family but im so freaking torn up wen im wif my frens..serious!!n i seem to enjoy my tym wif my family..dat is mostly my dad n mum..n lyk dread e moments wen i am wif my frens..freaky ryt??i noe..i can reallie laugh n smile n enjoy wen im wif my family but wen im wif my frens im lyk alone,depressed,neglected..reallie..i dunno y but..it seems to b dat wae..i feel lyk btween me n my close frens even my closest frens r drifting apart..i'm juz lyk another xtra..u noe..dis xtra ppl who suddenlie join our grp of 6..instead of me being in it..i am outside it n someone else replaced me..yea..dat is how exactly i feel....well,wateva cause deep inside i noe..dey will leave me..n my family wld b e onlie wif me..lyk e mly proverb,"air dicincang tidak akan putus" n 'cause i noe my family wld alwaes b there not lyk my mums family..no matter how often we fite..while i noe my frens will n intend to leave me wen it comes even if i dun wan it to happen..well,we juz haf to accept reality ryt??=))

2005-05-25T20:06:00.000+08:00

What's Your Personality Type?

The Performer

You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic.You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

What Personality Disorder Are You?

Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame!
When you're up, you're a little bit crazy...
And when you're down, your whole world is crashing
Scary thing is, these moods can change by the minute

What Kind of Soul Are You?

You Are a Peacemaker Soul

You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can.
War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace.
You are a good mediator and a true negotiator.
Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy.
You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can.
War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace.
You are a good mediator and a true negotiator.
Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy.
While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental.
You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take.
On the flip side, you've got a graet sense of humor and wit.
You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice.

true??dun tink so..did dis 4 fun anw..but wateva lar..hahakz..

sickie..

2005-05-20T19:34:00.000+08:00

hey!ncc todae was........i dunno lar..i was sick so yarz..mostly was inside e class wif sarah wif an ice pack on my head[sianz!!]...not my idea of fun...i tink i had either fever or empty stomach 'cause i wanted to vomit but nth came out...i totallie hate e ice pack...it was all because of [sir] YEE SHENG!!!make me put e pack on my head..make me look lyk an idiot,make ppl laugh at me!!bleurgh!!no fair sia!!n everytym it wasn't cold animore,he[or dey] change it..woah..my head froze sehx..serious..i tink i had brain freeze juz now...cannot stand it sehx..so cold+so sick...sianz!!haizzz...well,i gtg now..i haf 2 go n take med. ciao yarz~

exams finished!!

2005-05-16T19:50:00.000+08:00

YAY!!EXAMS ENDED ALREDI!!!woohoo..i am soo happie..whew!!no more late nites..i can get back my beauty sleep..hahakz~i can enjoy now dat is until i get back my report book..dat wld b lyk nxt fridae..bleurgh!!but i'll worrie dat wen e tym cums..hahakz~enjoy!enjoy!enjoy!is all dat is plaeing in my mind..i am soo happie..art was ok..wat else can i sae ryt?i got to buck yp on my maths..haizz..i got 2 get A1 for my eoy..omg!!i seriously need to work hard..ltr..now is tym too enjoy..so get on wif it ppl!!!YAY!!changed my layout..my old one e pic was bandwith exceeded..haiz!but nvm..e current want is simple n sweet..hahakz~i changed it also bcuz exams r done!!YAY for dat!!ciao~

1 more to go!!

2005-05-15T14:58:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO!!!1 more paper to go!!dnt sucked..lols..i cldnt do most of it..how g8t..well..thank god dnt's over!!it means onlie 1 ting n dat is we're done wif dnt n need not take it animore..woohoo!!..unless we haf 2 take it nxt yr dat is,which i hope not..*touch wood*..lols..left wif art..i wunder y we need n exam 4 art?who does exam 4 art??....................oh yar..we do..haizz..but who cares??after art?we're released!!!exams wld b done..stop it ryt dere ruz..u still havnt sit 4 e exams alredi tinking of celebrating..lols..anw,i cldnt go shidah's place todae..boo!!sorie shidah..wish i cld go..got 2 take care of my crappy sises..n i haf madrasah*:(*wish i needn't go..but wat 2 do..my parents will neva let me in a million yrs..i hate e ustazah..yuck wif capitals*YUCK!!!*..doesn't even noe how 2 teach..still wanna teach..big joke manz..mum angry wif us..dunnoe y..malas arh nak layan..she alwaes nagging @ me..haizz..carnt wait 4 tml!!best dae ever so far..i hope..oh yar,did i tell?i finallie watched A Walk To Remember..so sweet!!*aaawww!!*i was gonna melt..ceh..lyk real lyk dat eh?shane west is so hot...plus sweet!!in e movie..e movie was sad but not sad enuff 2 make me cry..lols..ana was practically irritated cuz faz keep giving comments..hahaz!!faza,u shuld keep ur comments 2 urself nxt tym..lols..hey,gtg now..muz touch up on my art prep..ciao~

6 down,2 more to go

2005-05-12T15:11:00.000+08:00

6 down,2 more 2 go!yes!!onlie 2 more pprs n not verie straining..i tink..but wateva..EXAMS ALMOST DONE!!!woohoo!!cant wait!mwahaha!so happie..onlie left dnt n art..oh sh*t!i havnt finish my art prep work..nvm..do tml wif e oths..going ana hse to do art n watch a walk to rememeber..i wanted 2 watch it 4 lyk so long alredi but no tym..so sad but nvm i get 2 watch it tml..yes!!dis is so fun..actuallie i can't wait for dnt 2 finish..i hate dnt anw..lols..havnt been down on dnt revising yet but wat e heck..i hate dnt anw..but i need e marks 4 my eoy..haizz..i hope wun overpass me..haizz..i'm so scared i flunk everiting..i hope i do well for at least 2 subs or better.i seriously am scared i can't drop or slip position..i'll die..seriously..yes,i will!!i will die if i'm no more in e top 10..i will..i will..lols..but seriously,i will..well,i suddenlie find e idea of studying dnt inviting..mayb i shuld go now..actuallie I GOT TO GO NOW....I MUST GO NOW!!lols..so ciao~

cOuntdOwn tO the end

2005-05-10T17:53:00.000+08:00

hey there!!whew!4 down,4 more to go..i'm quickly blogging 'cause i need to revise!keep revising until i understand..den i hope it gets into my head n i wun get brain freeze..life isn't going verie well dis daes..wif exams,my naggy mum n an aroused problem..haizz..juz end it pls..i'm sick n tired n i want to not be involved or even noe anithing abt it animore..i'm washing my hands off these prob...i can't stand it..seriously..i juz wanna lock dis at de back of my mind,prison it up so it wun get out n throw e key awae..seriously..haizz..juz so tired..u noe i mite juz wash my hands off u dat is me n u nth..actuallie not u onlie but some oth ppl which i cannot tahan animore..if u dun care wat ppl feel,y shuld i care abt wat u feel ryt?but i'm not dat narrow-minded n dat immature[in this case,i tink]/low to tink dat wae..if this is wat u return 4 caring 4 u den its too bad..fyi,u're not lessing our burden but u're adding into it..i'll let u ppl be n solve it among urself..i dun wanna sae aniting..dis is e last straw..if i juz speak my mind w/o caring wat u tink/feel,den u'll noe dat i dun care animore abt u..i'm juz too sick..juz let me tell u..all of u galz[my frenz dat is]..instead of me listening to u,y not u listen to me?try 2 listen 2 ppl who wants to speak but r not allowed/able to..open up ur ears n listen..

i can't wait for e exams to b done..dats wen i can enjoy n not haf anie headache..not long frm now..WOOHOO!!yay!!tml is science..omg!!i'm juz so freaking scared..ookkk...tym 4 me 2 continue studying..ciao~
p/s~e poem below is by me n my fren..nice?

`just here,being here
`at the brink of breaking down
`trapped somewhere deep
`unable to get out of this agony
`struggling to keep afloat,yet wanting to sink
`unable to get hold of your hand or fingers
`trying to grab that soul
`to hold it tight in my arms
`unable to hold my breath any longer
`to face MY REALITY
(c)ruzqilah

exams

2005-05-06T18:16:00.000+08:00

hey ppl..exams here alredi..study hard n do it properly..haizz..mly was ok eng was pretty difficult..2 down,6 more to go..countdown to final paper n end of exams..on mondae is my geog ppr..haizz..dat is one ppr dat will take up all of my brain cells..seriously..haizz..oh yar,ms zarina wanted 2 gif me mid pprs but neva gif sehx..haiyoz!!how??how???nvm..juz self revise w/o mid pprs as guidelines..geog is so hard to study for..haizz y geog n hist divided into 2?y not lit n hist??AAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!so stress sehx..but neva mind i can cope!!hahaz!i gtg now,haf to study 4 geog n sci n maths..yes i trying 2 squeeze everiting in..so ciao~

some people

2005-04-30T08:14:00.000+08:00

i reallie dun understand some people..dey tink they're dat perfect dat wen dey toc or do sth it seems alryt but wen ppl do it its not..n dey advice ppl abt stuff dat dey do..pls lar..stop being or even seem fake..irritating..yes i noe i haf a temper but so?wen deyre angry I'm supposed to console dem??den wen i'm angry??no one even cares..doesnt dat make me angrier??n dey even gif shitty defence dat dey did etc.etc. but wat e *toot*..dey tink dey did..but pls lar i am e person,i noe..n some ppl haf a big ego dat it cant be bruised n wen it is dey juz get revenge..revenge doesnt freaking get u anywhere..n some ppl juz tink dey can b s rude s dey can b 2 oth..if dey can b gd 2 1 person,y cant 2 e oth??dey tink dey're dat g8??dey tink its deir mouth dey can sae aniting wif it..plslar..its enuff dat u worrie ppl..now u wanna b rude?dun even appreciate ppl's concern..ARGH!!i'm so pisssed..i noe ppl wun understand me 'cause dey tink wat dey freaking do is ryt..i dun even understand some ppl..who can't even get their ego bruised..i dun care wat ppl gonna do..i dun even care if ppl take revenge at me 'cause dey TERASA..i dun freaking care..i've kept dis 2 myself long enuff..its tym ppl noe dier stand..

sorie to those dat i hurt in dis entry n oth events..its enuff probs 4 ME..w/o hafing 2 tink abt oth stuff..YES,I NOE IM NOT E ONLIE ONE FACING PROBS..i noe wat i advice to ppl at least..some ppl dun even noe..juz advice sth politically correct..kk..sorie..i'm juz too pissed..anw,exams is lyk nxt wk so i wun blog too much..anw,i dun blog much ryt?wish me all e best..i was wishing myself all e best,not asking u ppl 2..ha-ha.damn my sarcasticness..dats juz mie..so accept it..

heyx

2005-04-27T15:43:00.000+08:00

hey ppl..going for nite study in lyk 30 min??meeting iylie at 4.30 at e bus stop..shidah didnt cum 2 skool todae..no silent conversation wif ani1..hahaz!!i had to talk a lot todae n i realised my voice quite sengau...i tink i cuming down wif flu...haizz..at a tym lyk dis when e exams r ard e corner..irritating!!!my revision r going ok i guess but nth is inside my head yet..im a verie last min study person..everyting will onlie go in during e last min..ard 1 dae b4?dats e wae i am..but i reallie wanna do well 4 my geog..seriously..'cause i tink i wanna take geog nxt yr..i tink onlie not sure yet..hehe!!i tink i better get redi now..i'll update nxt tym..ciao~

exams ard de corner

2005-04-25T20:50:00.000+08:00

life is so stressful!!probs after probs,exams to study...i hate my life now...so depressing,stressful and full of probs..why can't people understand dat they are not the onlie freaking one who is facing probs okie?why can't these ppl juz stop doing stupid,foolish stuff??what the freaking benefit do they get??dun dey realise they are worying people who loves and cares for them...stupid ok!!u're not de freaking one who has probs..ure not the onlie 1 who is de eldest and facing pressure ok!People are being soo self-centered..all they care about is themself..IRRITATING seh..please lar,think b4 u do things n even b4 u toc..i am so annoyed at some ppl..i dunno y im so concerned wen dey dun even appreciate..no use getting concerned over this type of people but i can't help it..they are my friends without i being reminded..i dunno y people dun appreciate my existance..am i dat detestable??haish!!wat can i do?i onlie haf to study,study,study..exams is cuming n i still got tym to blog..but i so dis bcuz ana told me to..yepz..how dumb can i get??verie dumb ryt??n i dun need ppl[*hinthint] to rub it in..thankeus..

[Shidah]~thanks for sharing those negativity together wif me
[Ana]~thanks for listening wen i needed it the most
[Sarah]~thanks for listening no matter our differences
[Faza]~thanks for letting me help you:P
[Izzati]~thanks for showing me reality
[Salmah]~thanks for making me smile n laugh wen im down
[Iyliana]~thanks for showing me that friendship is precious

Evening Self study

2005-04-19T16:06:00.000+08:00

heyx!for once i get to update..thank gawd!hehe..anw,skool is stressful n probs after probs arise..haizz!!!i'm worried for zatie..gurl,if ure reading dis:take care.we'll alwaes be there for ya.i'll alwaes be there no matter wat kayz?on a briter note,i cut my hair..sth my frenz haf been waiting for..after so manie mths..hehe..dey sae its nicer i dunno..but i do LOVE my new hair style..hehe!mye cuming..pressure mounting,workload mounting..more headache..seriously,i am hafing one now..which totallie sux!haish!i got 2 go 4 e evening self study today..yepz..i'm meeting my frens at 5..that is in 46 minutes..hehex..and im still on e comp not showered..how convenient yarz?no worrieslar..i'll go dis min...mayb after i completed updating..:Phehe!!well,better get a moving if not i'm gonna be late n nagged at by ms ana n ms shidah..hahaz!!!catch u ppl sumtym..ciao~

hEy!!

2005-04-08T21:35:00.000+08:00

hey peepz!changed my blogskin..finallie,got bored of e old one..nice not my new skin??verie girly ryt?but wat to do?my feminine side took over..hahaz!!life's cool..so far..but verie bingit/irritating..my parents are 24 hrs nagging..if my mum nag,i go n hide..if my dad nag,i show bored face n go n hide..haha..i alwaes go n hide wen dey start nagging..can die juz listening to dem nag..if my mum nag she scream n shout..verie gggrrr...can die seh..life in skool is ok but got a lot of projects lor..not much hmwk but project is so rushing n i mean it..reallie rushing..i haf my IPW,some service learning stuff n ncc total defence silver badge..woah,2 of them haf 2 pass up dis cuming week..reallie tiring seh..no daes,i can go home erly..pitiful ryt?hahaz!!menyampah.. oh yar,my class changed chairperson..most probably every1 noe alredi ryt??duh!hehe..yang zhi is better lar..mayb bcuz i get along wif him better thn zheng xuan..zheng xuan all throw e duties to me..yang zhi..i can bully him..he bully me back..fun..josiah is such a pain in e ass..he juz haf 2 disturb ppl if not no peace..skool is sianz..luckily i got my gal-frenz..u gals r my life!!hahaz!juz kidding..but u gals are as important to me as my family,yarz..peace..ncc is ok..no matter how tired,how lazy,how sick i am..i force myself to go..good ryt??but some people lyk my sir dun appreciate..huh..so much for coming..hahaz!!juz kidding..dun get angry,yar yee sheng[if ure reading it,if not...bah!]..tml going for walk on e trees at macritchie..haizz..sure get a lot of insect bites n sure c monkeys..aahhh!!wateva lar!!so cute..juz now,dat boi so cute..make me melt seh..haizz..*thinking wistfully*hahaz!!i juz hope n wish but whether i get or not..i juz haf 2 wait..i can neva get it but i can hope n wish ryt?ryt..anw,i gtg alredi..haf 2 go n sleep..gd nitez~

in skool

2005-04-05T16:44:00.000+08:00

hey!long tym since i blogged..i wanna change my blogskin n my music!!yep!so i'll change 1st b4 updatng more ltr..

sneaked in

2005-03-21T22:09:00.000+08:00

hey peeps..sneaked so gotta be fast i guess..skool started etc.maths is so dammit confusing,ana's sick,didnt c iylie ard,we were[dat is e 5 of us] crazy..i n sarag went 2 faz hse..to fool ard,been reading a g8t book since i got home..had to walk home frm e mrt all e way n now i haf a blister on e back of my feet 'cause i didnt wear my shoes..mum went out,dunno where 'cause she refuses to tell me,dad is doing afternoon shift thus not home..cuming home at ard 11..lyk u all care..making it as fast,short n sweet as possible..changing my song..luv dis song 2 bits..haha..lyk real..ill rite longer tml..yup..~_~"'..going 2 sleep now..adious~

sArAhS hSe

2005-03-07T17:35:00.000+08:00

at sarah hse now..watched the cool guy..AAAWWW..it is so sweet..awww..i want him seh..he is juz so sweet..wish [HIM] was lyk dat..haha!!fat chance gal..haizz...he wun talk to me,wun come near me sia!!!boo hoo hoo..ANW,i get 2 borrow sarah's ryan cabrera cd!!yeah!!!iylie is playing wif my hair..tak habis2 seh..hehe..skools fine i guess..verie crazie..sarah..haizz...so clumsy seh..take over me.hehe..my parents r alwaes nagging at me,not stopping..haizz..everything i do is wrong..ggrr..my dad lar..a guy also can nag..i tell u worse den a woman..my mum alwaes,ALWAES nasi tambah..alwaes got sth 2 add on..ggggrrr...humph..aahhh!!!i want the cool guy!!!he is soooo sweet..in the future???mayb..dun jealous arh sarah..hahaz!!attack sarah..SARAH,SARAH,SARAH..oklar..iylie jealous seh..IYLIE,IYLIE,IYLIE..ok tak??hahaz!!ryan cabrera is so not cute..okok..he is onlie cute at certain posture..but jesse mccartney is better looking..ryt,gals??i wish he's here..but too bad he will neva..got dat alwaes xtra person..haizz..cant do aniting..cant feel dis wae but it juz cum,noe wat i mean??mayb not..lets juz leave it at dat huh??haizz..gtg now..shidah is alredi calling lyk a mummy..hehe..so bubye ppl...

sTiLl aWaKe

2005-02-28T22:49:00.000+08:00

hey frenz..i am blogging at 10 at nite 'cause my parents r alredi asleep..mwahaha..i get to hog de comp..life has been sooooo bzy these daes..i haf been going home verie late everidae..earliest is 6 i tink..latest ard 7+ going to 8..haizz..wat 2 do??skool..regretting sumtings now..hoping it wld change..haizz..shld haf followed my heart not brain..hahaz!!veri chim..but reallie..well,hafing part b camp on de 11th - 13th..had to do game-planning thingy..anw,dun feel lyk talking abt my cca for now..veri sianz..hehe..doing my geog project now..correcting here n dere,making notes 4 our presentation..I WANT TO GO BACK THROUGH TIME!!!yup,i do..correct de mistakes dat i did..eg.psle n sum tings..someone help me!!i need to totallie lose it..i am so depressed..[yawns*O*]..wanna sleep now..nitez!

yElLoWcArD cD

2005-02-23T19:30:00.000+08:00

thankeus gurls[shidah,sarah,zati]!!!thankeu so muc..4 de cd i mean..luv u gurls!!hahaz!!n sarah,i will lent it 2 u aft u burn 4 me simple plan!!!mwhahaha..i receive a lot of great tings dis yr..hahaz..thankeus to those who gave me sth..hehe..i haf lyk a lot of hmwk todae..n i mean it..gawd i can faint bcuz of hmwk alone..hahaz!!:P..lame ruz,lame..wish i cld juz haf de ting i love most 2 haf...haizz...s**t..shld stop riting abt [HIM] here..ppl wld noe..hahaz!!actuallie,dere's nth muc going on todae..xcept dat mr heng n shidah was at "war"..shidah VS mr heng..hahaz!!i rote on 23 feb but posted on 28th..hahaz!!anw,dat was wat i wanted to rite on 23rd Feb..hahaz!!

pHySiCs

2005-02-22T16:15:00.000+08:00

i'm in skool,completing my physics project..haizz..so lazie yet forced too..if i flunk dis project,my grades are going down the drain..HAIZZ...IPW was ok i guess..eh..not reallie 'cause zx teased me abt calvin..grr..i dun yk calvin lar idiot..he's such a gay guy..i prefer better guys thn him...sorie..but he's juz not my type...mwahaha..poor shidah..haf to do the powerpoint while i laze here doing ma lblog..hehe..but my comp is down now..sod..i want my own comp!!!!puhlease!!!hahaz!!mad brat on de loose..[HIM] is so ugly todae,i tink..actuallie,i tink he's good in both 'cause i lyk him of his personality..ceh..hehe..anw,i got to do my geog which is due nxt wk..hurmph...sarah,pls can we get to wurk??!!i'm hafing a headache 4 who noes y..not reallie spltting lar..but i hate headaches..haizzz..headaches stinks..i dint mean stinks as in sux..im cutting on my vulgar..hahaz!!but seriously yar..i haf been too vulgar lately..ooppsie..gtg now..shidah is going to get irritated at me ltr..hehe..ciao~

gUcCi wAlLeT

2005-02-20T13:27:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!my tagboard is finallie working!!but the best is i got a GUCCI wallet from my aunt!!so happie mayb i'm going 2 change my wallet..i realised sth,every yr 4 my b-dae i get a wallet..hahaz..so every yr i change wallet..hehe..i changed my song..a simple plan song again..hahaz!!i love simple plan!!nth much going on xcept im alwaes thinking of him..haizz!!stop thinking of him[lar],ruz..anw,here's the lyrics for the simple plan song:

Simple Plan
Thank You

I thought that I could always count on you,
I thought that nothing could become between us two
We said as long as we would stick together,
We’d be alright,
We’d be ok
But I was stupid
And you broke me down
I’ll never be the same again

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back

Yeah!

I wonder why it always has to hurt,
For every lesson that you have to learn
I won’t forget what you did to me,
How you showed me things,
I wish I’d never seen
But I was stupid,
And you broke me down,
I’ll never be the same again

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back

When the tables turn again,
You’ll remember me my friend,
You’ll be wishing I was there for you
I’ll be the one you’ll miss the most,
But you’ll only find my ghost
As time goes by,
You’ll wonder why,
You’re all alone

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back

So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, for all the times you let me down
So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, your friendship you can have it back

hEy..

2005-02-17T17:07:00.000+08:00

hey!!my comp is better i tink..had a run wif dan juz now..tiring seh..we didnt run the normal route,we run until near the kranji camp..slightly further..woah can die of tiredness..hahaz!!i wanna lepak sak!!listening to atomic kitten..my sis gave it to me for my bdae..thankeus gal..thankeus to aqilah too..for burning best of blue n avril lavinge for my bdae..thankeus to ana for the lip balm n soap(..")..thankeus to my frenz for the surprise party...faz,sarah,shidah,iyli,zatie n ana..thankeus to all who wished me a happy bdae..wat the hell am i doing?anw,wateva..i need to thank this ppl..n sorie to u ppl out there if i did aniting rong to u guyz or if u hate my guts..gtg now..bubye ppl

sToOpId CoMp!!

2005-02-08T18:43:00.000+08:00

STUPID COMP!!!!how cum my comp is prone to virus[lar],spyware[lar]& adware???huh??huh???y??y??gawd!!i am so irritated!!im lyk not going 2 ask my uncle-AGAIN..but i haf to n if its well again n not sick anymore,I'M GOING TO INSTALL FIREWALL OR ANYTHING DAT CAN STOP STUPID ATTACKS!!!!ggggrrrrrr!!!!so angry..i cant even check my mail..well,by hook or by crook i'm going to ask my dad to install it[wen its well i mean]..yesyesyes...im not onlie irritated at my comp,im also irritated at my skool...full of s**t skool,full of crap!!I WANNA TRANSFER!!!ceh...lyk i can lyk dat...y not juz turn it into prison??huh?HUH???dat moron is reallie too much,gawd de skool is lyk prison..i can suffocate..worst thn home!!!hehe...wen i graduate n never will step in kranji animore,im going 2 tell dat moron in de face-U sux..U ruin my life,U changed Kranji frm bad to worst N Im glad i graduated...yes..i am n if i got $$[insyaallah],im gonna treat my frenz...mwahahaha...woah..long term dream seh...hahakz..i got to do project on thurs seh,meet up wif SOME of my grp members n do..hopefully,dat person wun suddenly be in charge..i got to sign off now...ciao~

hApPy

2005-02-01T18:35:00.000+08:00

I'm happy but dun haf aniting 2 rite so here's some lyrics:
Avril Lavinge
Who Knows?

Yeah, yeah
Yeah-eah, yeah
Yeah-eah, yeah

Why do you look so familiar
I could swear that I have seen your face before

I think I like that you seem sincere
I think I like to get to know you a little bit more

[Chorus]
I think there's something more, life's worth living for
Who knows what could happen.
Do what you do, just keep on laughing
One thing's true, there's always a brand new day
I'm gonna live today like it's my last day

Yeah, yeah
Yeah-eah, yeah
Yeah-eah, yeah

How do you always have an opinion
And how do you always find the best way to compromise
We don't need to have a reason
We don't need anything
We're just wasting time

[Chorus x2]
I think there's something more, life's worth living for
Who knows what could happen.
Do what you do, just keep on laughing
One thing's true, there's always a brand new day
Who knows what could happen.
Do what you do, just keep on laughing
One thing's true, there's always a brand new day
I'm gonna live today like it's my last day

Find yourself, cause I can't find you
Be yourself, who are you?
Find yourself, cause I can't find you
Be yourself, who are you?

Who knows what could happen.
Do what you do, just keep on laughing
One thing's true, there's always a brand new day

So you go and make it happen
Do your best just keep on laughing
I'm telling you, there's always a brand new day

[Chorus]
Who knows what could happen.
Do what you do, just keep on laughing
One thing's true, there's always a brand new day
I'm gonna live today like it's my last day

nCc

2005-01-29T15:12:00.000+08:00

i haf been blogging onlie once a wk but who can blame me??im sooo buzy..at least,i update rite??not lyk some ppl after 1 mth++ also still havn't update..anw,today's training was quite tiring..but ok lor..i haf to rush 'cause i'm going out..had our trainfire test..i tink i failed my theory..haizz..dread the test on thurs..i am so scared,nervous,etc.etc. well,quite relieved dat i told how i felt yesterdae 2 faz..faz i am reallie2 sorie if i hurt ur feelings..i felt so bad after telling her but quite relieved too..but den shidah tried 2 loosen me up..cause i was so frustrated at myself 4 telling faz..i was telling myself dat i shld juz haf kept quiet etc.etc. i actuallie seriously tot shidah was mad at me 4 telling faz..but she told me ltr dat she was so hungry..i was whew!!yesterdae training was verie tiring..wen i was revising 4 my test todae,i kept falling asleep..but i memorise some of the notes..it helped me todae..but i still tink i failed!!i so hate tests n exams..
sarah:i want to borrow busted cd!!!
faza:quickly listen!!
well,i gtg now so ciao~until nxt tym!!

sKoOl

2005-01-25T16:29:00.000+08:00

finallie i get 2 blog..i am lyk so bz n of course stressed up!!gawd..i totallie need tym 4 myself 2 relax..i haf maths hmwk everidae..n dis wk is lyk test wk..i so dun wanna talk abt skool...sumone has been so called "making decisions" for lyk umm..us..we r a grp ryt?can't we discuss n ask each oth's opinion??we r frens but for gawd sakes we never said ### cld **** our %%%.i'm coding cause it wld bcum a fyte in skool ltr..we've been riting lyrics recently 'cause we're lyk stress??yar,most common n famous word of the year:STRESS..gtg n do my math hmwk[aarrrgggghhhhh!!!] n revise for my tests..math n dnt[triple aarrrgggghhhhh!!!]..so here's lyrics for Simple Plan's Shut Up..yes i lyk simple plan..ani prob?[hint hint**]

Simple Plan
Shut Up

There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you

You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time
To criticize me

It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one you love to hate
But not today

So shut up Shut up Shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out Get out Get out
Get out of my way
Step up Step up Step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

There you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do

You think you're special
But I know and I know and I know
And we know
That you're not

You're always there to point
Out my mistakes
And shove them in my face
It's like I'm the one you love to hate
But not today

So shut up Shut up Shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out Get out Get out
Get out of my way
Step up Step up Step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

Is gonna bring me down
Will never bring me down

Don't tell me who I should be
And don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should do
I don't wanna waste my time
I'll watch you fade away

So shut up Shut up Shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out Get out Get out
Get out of my way
Step up Step up Step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

So shut up Shut up Shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out Get out Get out
Get out of my way
Step up Step up Step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say
Is gonna bring me down

Bring me down
Won't bring me down
Won't bring me down
Bring me down
Won't bring me down

Shut up Shut up Shut up

2005-01-19T16:36:00.000+08:00

hey there..juz watched a cinderella story..omg!!the show is so sweet..n romantic..i love love love the show!!i dun give a damn abt the charactors or the actors[yea,chad micheal murray is cute but...] n actresses,i care abt the story!!!i felt lyk crying but couldn't cry..wasn't exactly moved to tears..but the story is sooooo sweet..now i wish fairy tales do cum true..but haizz...i've been gushing abt prince charmings recently..i so want a prince charming but of course not now..now is studies 1st..dere's no maths lesson tml!!yeah!!!mr heng changed our places juz now!!gawd,i can juz kill this teacher..he made me hate maths all over again!!n he gave us 2 tests nxt wk..2 test ok!!!n above all we haf a physics n d&t test nxt wk too...sooo...i haf 4 tests 2 study 4 nxt wk!!!aarrggghhhh!!!hate skool!!!!ggrrr...lend shidah my taufik's cd..omg!i didnt noe my class liked taufik..tot they supported sly..xcept 4 steph's gang dat is..they support sly..*******..haha..i dun hate sly or anithing but lets face it he doesnt realli haf a good international english voice ryt?agree wif me or wateva..i dun care but pls dun slam at my tagboard..lyk ani1 will..haizz..feeling a lil low this wk..bsides de fact dat tml is de last dae of skool...4 de wk dat is..gonna change my song..bored of it..so ciao~

tOday

2005-01-14T20:48:00.000+08:00

ncc today tuff seh..but nvm i endure..all of us endure rite??so hi 5!heh..lame..after training we had platoon uniform check..7 owned up bcuz uniform got problem..1 owned up dye hair..de oth 20 who neva own up uniform got problem wen kena check had 2 do pumping but we stay by our principal of one for all,all for one..so everyone do pumping..50 push up to be precise..not veri tiring if can endure lar..but dis is ncc,so whether u lyk it or not,haf 2 endure..rite sirs??juz now those who reported sick cry[according to iyli]..nuraini said dat she felt lyk quitting cuz de sirs keep asking her 2 fall out to report sick..we told nuraini not 2 quit bcuz if she feel dat way we feel it too..we r platoon mates..fellow cadets..sisters n brothers..we part b r going 2 go through thick nn thin 2gether s brothers n sisters rite guys??all i can sae now is dat we haf bcum more caring towards each other..i cld c dat all of us took care of each other..whether sumone was sick or hurt...n also wen sumone was feeling down lyk nuraini's case..i dunno if oths agree or not lar..but wateva it is we wld work 4 de better yar??we cum in as 38 ppl we will leave as 38 ppl..copy wat sir kevin saed..hahaz!!anw,we will be de largest batch of cadets yar??gtg now..wiped out wif leg hurting lyk hell..so ciao n sweet dreams~

sTrEsSeD

2005-01-13T19:44:00.000+08:00

AAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!i'm so stressed!!i reallie need a run n scream!!long tym since i run my heart out..the last tym was last 2 years ago wif nadiah..of course wif her..who else cld i run wif last tym?running can reallie relief my stress man..the runs in skool doesn't help 'cause u haf 2 stop lar..dis lar..dat lar..haizz..(shakes head)..i'm reallie stressed out dis week..i'm down wif cough(cough!cough!) now..haizz..STRESS!!!!!sec 2 is so stressful..but i can hang in dere..hopefully..wun breakdown..now,if i'm studying i'm reallie serious dats y i get stress ezly..if i crazy,i reallie crazy..b4 n after being crazy is de same...bcum stressed back..gawd!!not onlie me stress,my frens also..we also try 2 loosen up lar..i soooooooo stress sumtyms dat my head spin lyk hell seh..i'm an "owl" so i do work at nite so i'm going to do my MATHS hmwk now..everytym de same ting:MATHS..everydae got maths hmwk..haizz..well..gtg now..b4 dat..here's some lyrics frm a song dat i heard n lyked...enjoy n toodles~

LMNT
Hey Juliet

[Intro]
Hey Juliet
Hey Juliet

Hey I've been watchin' you
Every little thing you do
Everytime I see you pass in my home-room class
Makes my heart beat fast
I've tried to page you twice
But I see you roll your eyes
Wish I could make you reel
But your lips are sealed
That ain't no big deal

Cuz I know you really want me
I hear your friends talk about me
So why you tryin' to do without me
When you got me
Where you want me?

[Chorus]
Hey Juliet
I think you're fine
You really blow my mind
Maybe someday
You and me can run away
I just want you to know
I wanna be your Romeo
Hey Juliet
Hey Juliet

Hey Juliet

Girl you got me on my knees
Beggin' please, baby please
Got my best DJ on the radio way
Sayin' hey Juliet what are you doin' this week
To fall or turn around
So I'm gonna stand my ground
Gimme jus a little bit of hope
With a smile or a glance give me one more chance

Cuz I know you really want me
I hear your friends talk about me
So why you tryin' to do without me
When you got me
Where you want me?

[Chorus]

I know you really want me
I hear your friends talk about me
So why you tryin' to do without me
When you got me
Where you want me?

You have to see the weather
For us to hang together
So hear me when I say
Hey Hey Hey Juliet
Hey Juliet
Hey Juliet

[Chorus][x2]

Hey Juliet
Hey Hey Juliet
Hey Juliet
Hey Hey Juliet
Hey Juliet

i DeCidE

2005-01-12T16:17:00.000+08:00

Lindsay Lohan
I decide

Don't think that you can tell me what to think
I'm the one who knows what's good for me
And I'm stating my independence
Gonna take the road I'm gonna take
And I'm gonna make my own mistakes
It's my life
I decide

I decide how I live
I decide who I love
Choice is mine
And no one gets to make my mind up
I decide
I decide where I go
What I need
Who I know
I'm the one who's runnin' my life
I decide
I decide

Don't think you're ever gonna hold me down
Couldn't do it then can't do it now
I'm kickin' down all the fences
I'm gonna do it all and do too much
And if I mess the whole thing up
It's my ride
I decide

I decide how I live
I decide who I love
Choice is mine
And no one gets to make my mind up
I decide
I decide where I go
What I need
Who I know
I'm the one who's runnin' my life
I decide
I decide

I'm taking my own chances
And I'm finding my own answers
I'm only answering to me
And that's the way it's gonna be
I decide
Oh yeah
I decide
I decide

I decide how I live
I decide who I love
Choice is mine
And no one gets to make my mind up
I decide
I decide where I go
What I need
Who I know
I'm the one who's runnin' my life
I decide
I decide

I decide how I live
I decide who I love
Choice is mine
And no one gets to make my mind up
I decide

nCc

2005-01-08T13:14:00.000+08:00

ncc was ok yesterdae xcept dat i went home wet lyk wat..yesterdae was de 1st tym i went home wearing my no 4..maam allowed us cause we were oledi late going home..proud of wearing de uniform,man-eventhough it was wet..i was wet thanks 2 farish n danial..but nvm lar..it helped me cool down a bit..hehe..had fun after training of course..during training was ok..skool was ok 4 de rest of de wk..not much hmwk..but went home late 4 2 daes..bcuz of ncc of course..dun mind lar..i'm cool wif ncc oledi..4 now lar..anw,sarah's more outspoken after per leading..during pe,she keep showing her leadership skills..sibuk ajer..i n izzati 1 2 b in ssc den if lyk dis..den we no chance rite?so sarah pls gif us chance arh..u oledi in peer leader wat..gif us chance lar..well,i'm geog rep..my role is juz 2 collect assignments..well,its ok wif me..i tink..but wateva it is i will try 2 be s responsible s possile..hehe..supposed 2 do my science bio/chem assignment so i'll sign off now..ciao~